WHEN BREATH BECOMES AIR

BUTTERFLIES

"as the years elapsed
Her pain became her happiness
Her suffering her strength and
Her scars her wisdom
Her passion became incorrigible
And she burned for so much more than to merely subsist."

My body rested as my astral form roamed in dreamscape. There I saw a girl as beautiful as a rose, her eyes were hazel and her hair were red, her face was covered with freckles and she laughed as she saw me.
She was beautiful.
She held me by my hand and dragged me to a pink flower, it seemed no ordinary flower but it was like glass, so fragile. She looked at me with her so longing eyes, as if asking me to touch them.
I hesitated and touched them, as soon as my finger rested upon the flower, every petal turned into a butterfly, beautiful pink butterflies. They all swirled around up, tickling us with their wings, some rested upon my shoulder and hair changing their color to blue, some rested upon that little girl, and turned green. It was an amazing sight to see. The girl tugged my skirt and looked up at me asking me to come with her, I sat down, looking straight into her hazel eyes and said," I can't"
The girl started to cry and the colors of the butterflies faded as they falled, lifeless on the ground.
The sky turned black and she kept on crying.
It was her.
The daughter of dreamscape's ruler, the next heir of the throne.
Before I could do something the ground began to shake and I woke up.

My phone kept on ringing. I picked up to phone to see the caller's ID and it seemed to turn out that today was my last day on earth. Coach was calling me but my head pounded as if my brain was ready to jump out of my skull.
I picked up the call.
"WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?" My coach growled as I picked up the call making me push away the phone.
"Umm...I am at home" I told him the truth.
"You are 15 minutes late for practise" coach said and I looked up at the wall clock.
Fuck!!!
It was 5:17 am.
"Coach I am not feeling well today, I think I won't be able to come for practise" I told him.
"Did you drank yesterday?" Coach asked doubtfully.
" Hell no" I yelled.
" Don't lie, your sound like you are having a bad hangover." He said.
"18 extra laps" he continued.
"But..." I mummered.
"20 extra laps..." He said "no buts come here in next 15 minutes or I am going to double the punishment.
He's not going to agree with me.
"I am coming"I said and he ended the call.
Can't I rest on Saturday like a normal teenager?
I looked here and there and found Theo sleeping beside me. I couldn't help smiling. He looked so cute as she snored.
It had been around a month since I knew him and he turned out to be An amazing person, and an awesome bio partner, except the part that he slipped the frog into Mr. David's pants instead of dissecting it and we both ended up getting a C-.
I looked at the clock, god I have only 13 minutes.
I took a bath, and changed in three minutes and woke Theo up by pushing him off my bed.
" What was that for?"he asked groaning.
"Take me to coach Crater's house, will you" I said.
"Like this?" he asked as he pointed he was in his old clothes.
"Yes" I said and dragged him downstairs.
"But..." He trolled off.
"Okay here are your keys, please drive me to coach's house, will you" I plead.
"Okay, okay now please stop looking at me with those Bambi eyes" he said.
"What Bambi eyes?" I asked.
"Aren't you getting late? " He reminded me and we both quickly got into the car, god please, I don't want to run 40 laps, please I prayed and Theo laughed.
What an asshole.
We reached there in few minutes since he drove at a speed of 65miles/hour .
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Here we are standing in front of my coach who looks literally pissed off by the fact that I was late for practise.
" Start the laps" he yelled at me and I started to run.
Coach started to talk with Theo as I tried to complete my laps.
God this practise sucks , I mean I love running but you can't eat fast food like pizza and French fries without getting punishment or if you are late you have to do double laps around the track and 100 more push ups. Especially on Saturday.
I kept on running but my feet stumbled as I forced myself to run.
Mute black started to cover my vision but I didn't stopped, I had to run, it is my passion, other than writing and painting.
My lungs felt deprived of oxygen and I started to breathe heavily.
Before I could make out what was happening exactly, I falled down on the rough dirt track as darkness covered my vision .
I fought to see but only saw two figures running towards me.
"GOD, SHE IS BLEEDING" Theo yelled as I felt the sweet taste of my blood rolling down my mouth and drenching the sand in blood.
"LILLIANE CAN YOU HEAR ME, LILLI" this time coach yelled.
"CALL THE FUCKING AMBULANCE" Theo said as his voice broke.
Soon the figures disappeared as those 12 words  kept echoing my mind," I want to give you something you need more than I do"
I knew what exactly she was talking about.
Peace from this motral body.

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Hey readers and friend of readers and readers of friends of readers.
Today I am in my blue.
I am feeling so lonely, that I have no words to describe my loneliness.
I wish...
I wish that I was Lilli, so that I would be surrounded by people who love me, from their heart.
Thank you guys for reading this story so far... You guys are awesome.
With love and all the love of my heart
Thank you.
L. Wolf
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