Veronica High

Back together

Four and Tris, Christina and Will, Shauna and Zeke, Lynn and Peter are all back together. Uriah is going out with a boy called Caleb, i think its Tris' brother and Marlene goes out with Lauren. The Gang and I are back together but i haven't fully forgiven them. TWO WEEKS TILL GRADUATION! I've never been more nervous. I get dressed and get in the car with Mike (If you've forgot they live in an apartment together.)

When we get to school we meet up with the gang. hey I say hi they say back. We all head of to homeroom.

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We all get up and walk to English. good morning people, today we are doing spoken poetry. Now Caleb says that Kara does some spoken poetry. Kara would you like to share with us? Mr Prior says. I nod. Why does everything have to be me?? When you are ready! Mr Prior says.

We just stood there in shock as we looked down,

so many questions running through our head,

Wondering if we had just done something,

Anything, Then maybe things would have turned out different.

At the age of just 4 his mother told him he was a mistake,

Said that if she had it her way, he wouldn't be here today.

She resented him, despised him, Blamed him for everything

couldn't even look him in the eye without being filled with rage

She would tell him that he was the reason his dad walked out.

That from the day she knew she was pregnant everything changed

she went for being madly in love, getting drunk, high every night

to juggling two jobs and struggling to pay rent.

now she's a single mum with no future and course he's the one to blame.

And she reminded him of this fact every single day.

By 11 he'd seen it all- drug addiction, violence, sexual abuse,

he tried to shut it out as best he could but not matter how he'd try, It was no good

cos you see the problems kept growing, and just when he thought hed seen enough -

hed entered high school

under the false impression that this would be his fresh start, a chance to finally be himself, who knew kids could be so cruel

Theyd beat him, shamed him, spat in his food.

Mocked him, chased him, but somehow hed make it through.

He was no longer living at this point, just struggling to survive,

but with no one to turn to what else could he do?

Wasnt long till the teachers labelled him a problem child,

said he was disruptive, an inconvenience, that if he didnt settle down hed be kicked out.

didnt even try to understand him, he wanted to push it all out but how?

he couldnt fight it anymore, hed put up with it for too long

He no longer cared, he was getting angry now

Problems at school, the streets, at home,

where the fuck was he supposed to go?

By this point his emotions took over,

he was angry, violent, abusive - hed completely lost control,

He was done caring about anything, he didnt give a shit anymore.

By age 16 he was walking in his fathers footsteps,

lost and consumed by self hate,

took drugs to block out the thoughts in his head, anything to numb the pain,

desperately wanting to get away, escape to a better place,

a place where he could call home, a place where he felt safe,

safe to face another day but that doesnt happen in the real world, see there is no light at the end of the tunnel,

not for people in this place.

Cos you see he wasnt a bad kid, he was just scared.

Left to fight this world on his own,

desperately wanting someone to care.

Wasnt long till he gave in to it, hed became someone he hates

No longer wanted to fight it anymore,

hed accepted it, this was his fate.

And just like that he ended it.

No words, no note

Didnt even make it to his 18th birthday.

Sad thing is, given the chance he couldve been great

but none of that matters now cos its too late,

he can no longer be saved,

brought back from the grave to live another day

We live in a world where young kids turn to suicide as an escape

A way to finally feel free, because living has become their biggest source of pain

Why do we never realise our mistakes? Why do we only learn when its too late?

Local news will report this incident as just another case,

come up with excuses like he wasnt mentally sane or how kids are so easily influenced these days

Give it a few days and you wont even remember his name,

Just another statistic - and so many people go the exact same way,

This is the world we live,

Its such a cruel world, its such a shame.

I get claps but i don't smile or blush like i normally do. I'm used to claps. not to be selfish.