Jodie R'manda Holmes. After ending a three-year relationship with the person that took care of her but failed to show her emotional, mental and physical affection, she gathered her things and moved back to her home town. Harlem, New York. Where she...
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Playing with her white French tip nails, Jodie fidgeted unknowingly while Keyaan watched her. It was about that time that they let all of their emotions out.
Jodie wanted to back out of it so bad but she knew that if she wanted to go any further with her relationship that she had no choice.
Her mistakes hurt her but she didn't realize just how much it had hurt the people around her until she looked into Keyaan's eyes on the night of her birthday when he had told her that he had hate in his heart for her.
She would have never thought that when she walked out of Keyaan's life when he expressed his love for her that she would have to fight twice as hard to get that love back. The thought of it alone brought tears to her eyes.
"So you ready to talk about this or you just gonna sit there and play with your hands Jodie?" Keyaan's voice came out harsher than he had intended but hell they had been sitting in silence for more than four minutes.
"I'm ready." She spoke at the level just above a whisper but he had heard her clearly. Those two words were just enough for him to speak every emotion and feeling that he had and he started with, "Jodie I don't think you realized the consequence of you leaving home, yo."
"I told you how I felt and you didn't think twice about leaving me sitting there. You had me thinking that we were gonna be together and I know that you were with ole dude but Jodie, you chose him over me.
"We fucking grew up together, yo. We were having sex. We were talking about our fucking future and then when I found some courage to tell you how I felt you basically spit in a nigga face and told me that I didn't mean shit to you. You can't say I wasn't there for you.
"Every time that nigga fucked up, I was there! I was your shoulder! I was your best friend! I worked everyday just to spoil you and make sure that you didn't have to go out of your way to ask your parents and what did you do? You ran away with a nigga that only used and abused you but now that you found some sense, you back? And for what? So it can go back to how it was?"
"It'll never go back to how it was because this friendship is so fucking damaged from that day man. But I'm willing to work towards it so I can't even say it'll never go back. When you showed up on my doorstep it took everything in me not to spit in your face. I was mad at myself for so long yo."
"I-I was mad that even after three fucking years, I still loved you....When you left I was looking for you in everybody. Every last one. None of them could compare. None of them were able to show the same thing that you did."
"I'm hurting myself trying to think of reasons to NOT love you. I love you so much but what about me? Am I getting that same love back or is it one-sided once again? Let me know something Jodie."
With her hands covering her face, Jodie quietly cried. Everything that he had said hit her like a bag of bricks. If you were to ask her if she deserved it, she would say "I deserved every last bit of it and then some."
Wiping her eyes she sniffled. "Keyaan I-" Dropping her head she rubbed her sweaty hands on her tights. "I'm sorry."
"I never meant to hurt you, I was scared. I was naive. I was young and dumb and I'm sorry for that. You're right, that decision brought me a lot of consequences that I'm still living with today but it made me stronger." Wiping under her eyes she continued to talk.
"My intention was never to hurt you. I thought that leaving with Rakim would make me into a woman. I thought that leaving was going to signify me thinking for myself but it only brought me trouble and if I could take it all back I would. But I can't...it's already done and I want nothing more than your forgiveness.
"I love you too Keyaan." Placing her hand on his cheek once he sat next to her she stared into his eyes. "I've always loved you and I'm sorry for not showing you before but please give me a chance to show it to you now."
After a moment of silence he nodded his head. "I forgive you."
A smile covered Jodie's face when he continued to say, "Now I can finally ask you...Will you be my girlfriend?"
"I've always been your girl, don't play."
Chuckling, Keyaan wiped Jodie's tears away and kissed her forehead, then her nose, then finally her lips.
Hiking her leg over his thigh, Jodie held his face in her hands and repeatedly pecked his lips.
"Promise me you won't leave me like that again. I know you have your fears or whatever but we gonna work on them. Don't put me on the back burner again aight?"
"I promise I won't." Jodie stood up and fixed her velvet jumpsuit.
Turning towards Keyaan, Jodie began to pull off her clothes while Keyaan watched her.
"What you doing Jodie?"
"What it look like?" Pulling off her pants completely, Jodie threw her leg over Keyaan's and straddled it. Keyaan looked up at her through hooded eyes.
"Man stop playing with me before I break your ass in half yo." That made Jodie laugh out loud.
She hadn't had a good fucking in a while but she was gonna tease Keyaan until he got mad enough to 'break her in half'. She was just gonna wait on the day.
Nuzzling her head in his neck, she kissed it softly. "I just want you to know that I'll never leave you like that again and that I love you."
"I love you too shorty. Now stop playing and get up so we can go get my other shorty." She did what she was told and lifted up.
She was excited to her Kairi, so she picked up her pants and ran into the back room to find her shoes.
Keyaan shook his head. What was he going to do with her?
"Love her till I can't anymore." He thought to himself.
