heartache

fifteen

Stella's POV

"Where have you been all day? And why are you wet?" my dad asked when I walked in the door.

"I was with the Curtises and we went to the lake. Oh and Dad, I'm kinda sorta dating Soda again," I said quietly. I was gonna have to tell him eventually so why not now? My dad set down his book and looked at me.

"You're dating him again? He was the reason you almost died Stella!"

"It wasn't his fault Dad! I was the one who threw myself in front of the bullet! And he was there for me when you weren't and he makes me happy! Why can't you just support me?" My dad sighed and sat back in his chair.

"Whatever. You're almost a legal adult and you can do what you want. You're right, it's your life but just know that I'll accept him, but I won't be fond of him."

"Fine Dad, whatever. I'm taking a shower and then going back over there." My dad nodded his head and went back to his book. I stomped up the stairs and went into my bathroom. I stripped myself up the dirty wet bathing suit and hopped into the nice warm shower. It relaxed my tense muscles and made me feel instantly better. As you know, I love Jake Miller and singing in the shower so you'll never guess what I did; I sang a Jake Miller song in the shower. It was called "Homeless" and it was relatively new and my new favorite.

"Here I stand in the cold

I tried to knock

'Cause you changed the locks

Now I'm all alone

Where am I supposed to go?

If you are where my home is

I guess that makes me homeless

So what now? I got no idea where I'm goin

I'm lost with no direction like my GPS is broken

I'm walkin' round the streets thinkin' bout you every night

I'm feelin homeless now

Lookin' like the man from I'm alright

See I just wanna come back home, can't do this on my own

You were the only thing I knew for sure, guess that I was wrong

See I've tried to walk away but I just end up at your doorstep

Waiting for my phone to ring but nope, you haven't called yet

So I'm wandering, aimlessly

Wish that you stayed with me

Thought that we were meant to be

Felt that you were there for me

But I guess not 'cause in case you failed to notice

You used to be my home until you left me homeless." I continued singing "Homeless" and then switched to "Me and You." Once I finished belting out those two songs I was done so I got out and walked to my room. Now, what to wear...the struggle is real. Do I wear something comfy, or do I want to look presentable? Compromise won over so I ended up wearing denim shorts and an NYU (New York University) sweatshirt. NYU was my dream school and I have always wanted to go there, ever since I discovered that I loved to write and I was actually good at it. I blow dried my hair and then braided it, like usual. I didn't grab anything because I wouldn't need anything. I walked downstairs and said goodbye to my dad, leaving him to read his book.

***

I didn't even knock anymore. What was the point? It was basically my house too so I just walked in to find a zoo going on. Two-Bit was stacking beer cans and his converse and all sorts of random things, Ponyboy was doing his hair in the bathroom, and Steve and Soda were arm wrestling. Everyone was involved in their activities so I just walked in and no one noticed. Not even Soda. I walked up behind him and kissed his cheek from behind. I think I scared him or something because he kind of jumped and Steve pushed Soda's hand to the ground.