Maybe, Probably, Perhaps, Possibly [A KissWard Fanfiction]

OUT OF MY DAMN MIND

I walked barefoot in the dark abandoned hallways, my mind flying about, my head unable to keep me wired to my brain. Hilong-hilo na'ko at hindi ko na masyadong natatandaan ang mga nangyari kanina. It seemed like as if it had taken forever for me to walk away from that self-absorbed git.

I checked my arms for bruises or cuts or stuff I actually deemed as a "serious damage" to my skin. I know right? I'm so effing overreacting when it comes to my skin.

Whoosh.

Kanina pa'ko lakad nang lakad dito and I was starting to get the feeling na may sumusunod sa'kin. Nakakalayo nako ng ilang metro kay Edward at di ko na siya nakikita sa likuran ko (not that I actualy bothered to check it out and lumingon sa likuran ko, sobrang nakakatakot lang kasi). A gust of wind swept my skirt as the cold breeze touched my skin. Nanlamig ako bigla, and I was suddenly so aware that I was alone. All alone.

Hindi ko na lang pinansin yung instinct ko. Di ko gustong matakot ngayon, lalong-lalo na't ako lang dito at nag-iisa at walang kasama. Waaaah! Naaalala ko tuloy si Valak. Tae, baka nga andyan na siya sa likuran ko eh.

Ang dilim talaga ng paligid, at nararamdaman kong nababalutan ako ng kadiliman: yung tipong malamig at nakakatakot at nag-iisa ka lang. Yung feeling na nakukuha mo kapag nanonood ka ng sine sa isang horror na movie at wala kang kasama sa row ng seats.

Lumingon ako sa gilid, kahit na ayoko talagang i-check kung may kung ano sa likuran. My heart was running wildly inside my chest as I scanned the surroundings behind me kahit na wala naman talaga akong nakikita kasi ang dilim lang. Wala nang naka-on na lights sa interior ng school kasi ganyan naman kasi talaga yang mga eskwelahan eh, nagtitipid ng kuryente.

Wala bang nag-oovertime na teacher dito na pwede kong paghingan ng tulong? Sabagay, kung meron man, sana may nakarinig na kanina sa commotion at sana nakalabas na'ko dito. I don't know how administrations work but I had a feeling there's something off with this school.

What if kaya no, Hogwarts to? Wahaha, at ako ang magiging si Hermione. Wow, ang active ng imagination ko, ah! Grabe lang!

Patuloy pa rin akong lumalakad kahit na wala akong plano kung saan ako pupunta, basta lang makalayo ako sa walangyang German na yun. Sobrang nakakarinde lang kasi eh! Palagi na lang siyang nagmumura! Heh! Pinalaki ako ng mga magulang ko ng maayos kaya hindi ko talaga matanggap-tanggap na palagi nalang siyang nagmumura sa harapan ko. Ayos lang naman nung una eh kasi hindi niya masyadong sinisigaw o di kaya'y nag-eeffort siya na hindi siya magmura. Pero pagkalaunan, lumevel-up ba naman! Sinisigaw niya yung mga mura niya at halos kada segundo may nakabaon siyang bagong mura! Iba rin yung German na yun, iba.

Pero at least tinulungan niya ko. At least he chose to deal with my incessant pleas and tried to lead me out of here. At least he tried. Pero napikon lang talaga ako kanina eh. Nakakapikon lang talaga siya. Pero really, na-appreciate ko yung ginawa niya, kahit na uminit yung ulo ko sa kanya.

There's something about him, about Edward. He's the type of guy that gets under your skin and pisses you off most of the time and displays a cold and withdrawn nature; but then you somehow get the feeling that there's something else in there, in him, which would actually, if you bother to look, turn out to be not as bad as it seems. You just have to know where to look and when to stare. He's the type of guy that's so snob and formidable but at the end of the day has the kindest heart. He's like an old book: deemed by most people inadequately unusable and just a day's stretch, just another stinking montage of larceny of ideas but then again, holds the most invaluable secrets of life, just like what his eyes convey. I guess he's different. Maybe too unpredictable than how I'd care to admit about boys' major attitudes. He's a lump in the throat, but I kind of think he's something ... something dark and ominous, but an iridescent glow in the inside ... if I just care to look further within.