Trapped in Hell (Jeanxoc)

15

"What is it like?"

My body stiffened as I walked through the crowded halls.

"Hm? What is it like to be hated by so many people?" Annie asked walking beside me.

I gulped slightly and didn't say anything.

"Just look around. Look at all the people staring at you" Annie said.

Her words stung like poison.

"Do you see those dirty looks on their faces?" She said and paused  "Well they're directed towards you. Look at them whispering, I'm sure I know what they are whispering about.... Freak. Slut. Nerd. Bitch. Emo. Attention whore. Gothic skank" she said each insult slowly and emphasized. "they are whispering those things about you"

My hands trembled slightly and tears began welling up in my eyes.

"So again, how does it feel to be hated?" Annie asked glaring at me.

I didn't say anything, I knew I would cry if I even uttered a word.

"Answer me" Annie snapped.

"I I.." just as I predicted, tears began falling.

"huh? I can't hear you" barked Annie.

Before I could speak I felt warm calloused fingers thread into mine "Jessica, are you alright?" a voice as smooth as silk asked. "Annie... can you please leave Jessica alone?" the freckled male said in a somewhat stern tone.

Annie scoffed slightly and walked away.

Marco squeezed my hand gently and placed a kiss on top of my head "Dont believe her" he said.

"...what are you doing here.. isn't your class the other way?" I said my voice cracking and more tears streaming down my face.

"You forgot your phone on your seat in class, I was going to return it to you" Marco said handing it to me, his fingers unlacing from mine.

I grabbed it "Thank you" I nodded.

"Chemistry right?" Marco asked.

"Yeah ..why?"

"Come on, let's go" Marco said and started walking that direction in which I followed him.

Marco opened the door to my class and I walked in, surprisingly enough he followed me in.

"Jessica are you alright?" Hanji asked upon seeing my tear stained face and smudged make up.

"I'm fine" I murmured.

"Mrs. Zoe if its alright with you may I stay in your class?" Marco asked.

"Yeah.. Jessica go ahead and take it easy today" Hanji said.

I walked towards my seat when my eyes met with Jeans; he had look of concern, sympathy, and confusion. My eyes flitted away from his and I sat in my seat, Marco sat in the empty seat beside me.

I laid my head on the table and covered my face with my arms. I felt like complete shit. Her words hurt me so bad, it was like she was spitting fire on me.

Every word she said was the truth. I am a freak, I'm a nerd, and by the looks of it I am a whore. Im just around so many guys who wouldn't assume that? I am hated by many and thats a fact. It's a fact that hurts so much.

Unknowingly I had started quietly crying again. Once again a warm hand was on me, but this time softly rubbing my back. The feeling was comforting and foreign to me still. Im not used to people comforting me.

"Shh it's alright" Marco whispered.

I knew people were staring at me. I didnt even have to look up, I could feel their judgemental eyes on me. It made me want to cry louder.

Marco snaked his hand under my arms and gently grabbed my chin pulling my face over carefully to look into his eyes.

I looked at him my bottom lip quivering.

"Jessica it's ok, what she said wasn't true. It really wasn't. She just wants to hurt you, dont let her win" Marco whispered.

I continued to sniffle but the tears had stopped.

He put his hands on my cheeks and wiped away my tears and runny make up with his thumbs. "Thats better" he murmured. "now give me a smile"

I gave a half hearted smile.

"come on you can do better than that" he said, one of his hands remaining on my cheek while the other had dropped to his side.

I smiled softly, putting in a little more effort than the last one.

"Beautiful" Marco said, his thumb ran over my bottom lip slowly "I like it when you're smiling not when you're crying" he muttered.

I nodded slightly.

~~

Walking out of class with Marco I felt Jean bump me.

"Hey.... why were you crying?" Jean asked.

"Its none of your buisness" I said. Jean growled slightly and walked away.

Marco glanced at me "Are you doing better?"

"Yeah" I nodded.

"Hey buddy!" Eren said slapping my back.

"Ow!" I whacked the back of his head.

"Ouch" Eren rubbed the back of his head. I laughed a little.

"You're too rough" Armin said.

"Haha whoops" Eren said.

~~~

I sat in the back of drama class playing with the holes on my torn up jeans.

Jean walked over and sat next to me "Are you going to give me the cold shoulder?" he grumbled slightly.

I looked over at him "..no, why would I?"

"Well you kinda had an attitude when I last tried talking to you "

"Oh.. I'm sorry" I said glancing at him.

"..it's fine... so.. why were you crying? .." Jean asked.

"Its no big deal and I really dont want to tell you " I said smiling a little.

"But you told Marco?" he asked.

"No not really ..please ..Jean I really don't want to talk about it"

Jean sighed "Fine"

It was silent for awhile between us.

"Um.." Jean began and I looked up at him "do you.. still hate me and think I'm a pervert?" he asked.

I smiled at him "Yes, yes I do" I said.

"Huh what? Then why are you smiling" Jean asked.

"Because I hate you" I said and giggled.

"Are you joking?" Jean asked.

"Maybe~" I said smiling.

Jean ruffled my hair "You are joking, so you really dont hate me"

I giggled slightly "Yeah, I don't hate you"

"Good" Jean pinched my cheek gently.

I pinched his cheek hard "Stop being so touchy"

"Ow" he said letting go of my cheek and I let go of his.