it's like a fire catching in my throat
when you talk about how happy you are
with him.
it's like my heart adjusting into my stomach
when you mention how much
you love her.
because once upon a time
i had the world in my hands
and the stars on my fingers
until the big bang washed it away
like high tide.
now, all i can do is watch
as everyone glows around me
while all i am
is clouded.
