Fear
I hate it because it’s so big
I hate to fear something, someone, somewhere
And I’m furious at myself because I can’t let the fear go
It’ll always find a way of coming back to me
I’m also furious because of those which gave me this fear
‘Cause they were so heartless and still are
I can’t sleep anymore
I just lie awake in my bed
Fearing every freaking minute because something could happen
I’m so frightened, incredibly frightened
I am such a whip, coward anything you wanna name me
I can’t even bear to live in myself anymore, in my body, my skin, my blood
I’m in such a bad situation that I can’t even look in the mirror anymore
Not even considering my family if I still have one
If they still count
But I’m sick of it just so sick of it
Of can’t going out anymore without getting paranoid
Of can’t having a countable sleep anymore without closing all windows
Looking all doors
Closing all curtains
And checking this three times afterwards and so many more
Sometimes I have this overwhelming urge of running away
Running away from everything and anyone
Anywhere, it does not matter
But I know the fear will always follow me
Everywhere
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I don't really know what to think abou this one but I hope you guys liked it. If you have any ideas or topics you want me to write about let me know in the comment section! Have a great week-end :)
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