True love waits

Chapter 26: If you'll be my star, I'll be your sky

"Tell me something about you that I don't already know."

After yesterday Noah and I came to the mutual agreement, that we didn't want to pretend or hide our feelings for each other anymore, I'm absolutely head over hills in love with this dude, and he's absolutely positively head over hills, gaga in love with me.

But we're not stupid, we're fully aware of his situation and what has to happen. So, we decided to go out to our secret spot, you remember the one he took me to years ago, you know the one with the stars, the secret spot that only he and I know about, that secret place, we went there and sat out there for hours, just talking about silly stuff.

"When I was little wherever I was scared daddy use to run his fingers through my curls, I don't know why, but it would always sooth me and I wouldn't be afraid anymore." I explained as Noah and I laid in the back of his truck.

"How cute." Noah says taking a dramatic pause to ask. "Can I ask you a question?"

"Sure, but first can I ask you one."

"Of course."

"How are you, you know with your depression?" I questioned.

Letting out a deep breath Noah replies."Um, some days are better than others."

"I'm sorry, for causing this." I look to the side only to have my head turned back when he cupped my chin, bringing my attention back to him.

"Hey, don't be, If I had to do this all over again to keep you safe, I would ."

Flashing him a quick closed smile as I guided my eyes away from him. Grabbing my hand Noah says."Hey, every day I spend with you, I get a little more hope, you make my darkest day so much better!"

Flashing yet another closed fake smile I couldn't help but to continue to feel guilty I mean yeah, he said it wasn't my fault, and that if he had the choice he'd do it again, if it kept me safe, but I still feel bad, the truth of the matter Is, he's in this position because of me, and I hate that, every time I look at him and see what he's going through, I can't help but think if it wasn't for me, he'd be happy right now, if I would have just kept ignoring him all those years ago he'd be happy, I mean sure at the time his ego would have been hurt, but in the long run he would have gotten over it. It's funny how one wrong move could ruin someone else's life.

"Soo, you had a question?"

"Right, why were you at that fertility bank with Yasmin, and don't say to support her because I don't believe it."

Letting out a deep sigh I flipped to my side facing him as I rested my head in my hand."I'm- I'm...." I began to say hesitating; this topic has always been a sensitive subject for me.

Putting his hand on mines Noah says."Take your time princess."

Shrugging my shoulders in I tried my hardest not to cry I continued with."My body can't hold children, Yasmin was supposed to be my surrogate, but they don't have any donors that would be willing to donate to a colored person."

"Then let me donate."

"WHAT?!" I questioned with my eyes growing wide wondering if he really said what I thought he said.

"You heard me- let me be the father of your children."

I let out a chuckle followed by."Noah this is crazy- you can't do that!"

"Why not?!"

"Because you're getting married that's why?!"

Sitting up Noah's face becomes real serious almost like what I said brought him back into the reality of his situation that he seemed to conveniently forget.