Love Games

Mailan

I fucked up, and I knew it. The night that I was talking to the guy, he made me feel something I haven't felt in a while. I shouldn't have done what I did. I felt guilty, but I wasn't going to let that stop me from moving forward in my relationship with Eli. I've been waiting on this for too long. What he doesn't know won't hurt him, right? I haven't talked to that guy since that night. So I feel as if it's in the past and that's exactly where it should be left.

Next month was my family reunion in Colorado, I couldn't wait to get away from home and spend time with my family and the one person I love the most.

------------

After Eli and I got off of work, we went to "The Wave". It's an aquatic theme park with shows and rides. It was one of the places we once visited when we first moved into our house. It has been a while since we went, so we took our time, enjoyed each other's company, and had fun. We laughed, ate ice cream, rode the roller coasters, took pictures.

We sat down on a nearby bench after running around for some hours. We had to take a break for a while.

"Can you promise me something?" He asked.

"What am I promising?" I asked while looking at him.

He stared at me long and hard before he asked me his next question.

"Promise me that no matter where we end up, you will always love me." He said as he started to look down at his hands.

"I promise." I said.

And just like that, the guilt grew stronger and stronger. I hated myself for letting my emotions get the best of me. Why did I have to be like this? I know I love Eli. I couldn't see myself without him. I know that telling him my secret would probably lift a weight off of my shoulders, but it would also tear us apart. I know that out of all of this chaotic mess, he deserves the truth at the least. I just couldn't let him go though.

"Mailan?" He asked.

I had to quickly snap out of my thoughts.

"Yeah." I said quickly looking up at him.

"You okay?" He asked.

"Of course. I'm just... I'm just happy we're not on bad terms anymore." I said. I wasn't lying. Not about that part at least.

"Are you sure?' He asked.

"Positive." I said.

"Okay. Did you want to still walk around or do you want to go home now?" He asked.

"We can go home now." I said.

"Okay let's go." He said.

----------
The car ride back home was silent. It wasn't an awkward silent, it was more like an "we're worn out" silent. The radio was playing, the windows were down, I was laying back in my seat. I guess this would be a good time to mention the family reunion coming up next month.

"Eli." I said.

"Yes?" He said.

"My family reunion is coming up next month. I was wondering if you'd go with me." I said.

"Where is it at?" He asked.

"It's in Colorado." I said.

"How long are we staying there?" He asked.

"Why so many questions, Eli?" I asked.

"Because, you know I don't like your parents." He said.

I started to laugh because it was true. He didn't like my parents, but he put up with them for me. Another reason I loved him.

"I know you don't. But it's only for two days. I love them, but you know I can't stay around them for too long either." I stated.

"I know. But why is it only two days?" He asked.

"It's supposed to be four days, but like I said, I can't stay around them for too long." I said as I started to laugh.

"You're ridiculous." He said as he started to laugh with me.

"We're taking a plane. Because I'm not driving for 16 hours." He stated.

"So you are going?" I asked excitedly.

"Yeah Yeah Yeah. I'll go." He said jokingly.

"Thank you." I said as I smiled.

--------------

When we got back to the house, Eli and I showered and started to watch tv while laying in our bed. About an hour later, we both fell asleep. We were tired from our eventful day.