Love Games

Mailan

I was hurt from what just happened with Eli. Although I deserved it, he was right. This whole thing could've been avoided and I could have still been his girlfriend, if I was just honest to begin with. I couldn't help but sit down and reflect on everything. From the time we met, to the time we got engaged, to us moving into our house together, to things taking a turn for the worst, to where we are now.

After a while of being down, I decided to get up and start cleaning to distract myself from overthinking so much. I plugged my phone in and put music on.

[Verse 1]
"If I had the moment, I'd capture that moment
You would be right here next to me
If I had the secret, the secret to your love
I would place the treasure beneath my heart"

[Pre- Chorus]
"Lock it all up and throw away the key
I would never give it, it up
Cause I was just a fool, a fool for you
When I loved you so childishly"

[Chorus]
"And I want it all back, I want it all, I want it all, girl I
want it all back
I want it all back, I want it all, I want it all, girl I want it all.
You never miss a good thing 'til it's gone
I want it all, now I want it"

("All Back" By Chris Brown)

"Why does it seem like whenever I go through something, a song related to what I'm dealing with comes on the radio?" I thought to myself.

The song only made everything worse. Only because everything the song was saying, was true. I should've loved him better. I should've did what I could to keep him. This pain I feel, I can't blame for anyone else but myself. Heartbreaks hurt enough as it is, but it hurts even more when it's your fault as to why it ended.