If I've posted this chapter that means I'm either over it or I just don't care anymore.... Or the fact that maybe I have an adrenaline rush...
Like every other teenage girl, I too have insecurities. Way too much at times. It is completely another fact that I never show them and pretend that I don't care but tbh, I do. A lot sometimes. And I just want to get it off my chest.
Maybe I should download blogger after all.
When it comes to me, as I will never admit, except to really close individuals, I hate my physical self. I know hate is a strong word but the feeling is almost there. And I know we should always love ourselves cause we are unique in one way of the other. But it's just, what I say.... Human nature. We want more. It's like it'll never end. The whole goddamn cycle of insecurities. And neither I or you or anyone can get out of it. What should I do? What should we do?... I mean it has almost become really bugging me. There are a thousand things I don't like about myself but only very few that I like.
And then my poor social skills and the fact that I'm a nerd, doesn't help either. Yes, it shouldn't matter who talks to me or not but tbh it does I'm just about 16 after all. What do you expect. The only thing that makes me realise occasionally that these things are pretty immaterial is the support of my fam.
This seemed like an award acceptance speech;). Whatever.... The thing is.... I am too introvert.... So there's that.
Wbu????
An: So it's another one of my deepest darkest feelings I never had the nerve to tell anyone. Hail 2020
