the oblivion

four

four.

it was raining outside and i hadn't realized it until my clothes were already soaked. my mind was too busy thinking about ellis, while my heart was too busy contemplating the pain.

'that's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt.'

i whispered the line out loud, which didn't help at all. it only made me think of the fault in our stars, which lead me into thinking about ellis. but then again, everything reminded me of him.

he was the sky, the sun, the moon, the stars, the light on the street that makes everything safer, the endless roads that leads to nowhere, yet it makes you feel closer to something.

he was everything and more.

when i reached my house, everything was normal. mom was at the living room watching television, dad was his office working and my older sister, flora, was nowhere in sight.

every step i took, a squeaking sound was heard. my shoes were still wet, as well as my socks, my clothes and my hair.

mom looked up from her sitting position and gave me a worried look. "are you okay?"

i nodded my head and continued to walk towards my room upstairs. i heard my mom shout for me to dry up, but i simply ignored it and closed the door.

if only they knew how my life was. with ellis' condition, nothing was easy. but nothing ever was, this just made it harder.

but like i told ellis, i would stay and i would never ever leave him. because that was what our love was like, even if.

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the next day, thursday, i was sitting on the bench again. i carried a small book with me to read while i waited for ellis.

the sky was clear, no patch of grey, the grass was green like always, the park was quiet with only a few people around. everything was normal.

i was already on the seventh chapter of my book when i heard the wood of the bench where i sat on, creaked. i looked up from my book and saw ellis, his brown hair still shaggy, his skin was paler and his shoes still weren't tied -just tucked at the sides of his sneakers.

his hands were kept inside the pockets of his coat as his eyes wandered around. he glanced at me and i quickly averted my eyes from his, looking back down to my book.

ellis closed his eyes and took a deep breath. he took his hands out of his pockets and gripped the bench.

then he pushed himself up, stood up and left -ellis left.

i wasn't expecting much, but it did hurt. no smile, no hi, no anything. but what was i really expecting? for him to remember me? for him to befriend me? i couldn't control that.

today, i was just a stranger to him.

the tears built up in my eyes, the letters in the book blurry. a tear fell on the page as i looked at my bookmark; a piece of paper with ellis' hand writing.

i love you so much fleur... so so much. no matter what happens, okay?-ellis.

then i closed the book and left as well.

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short chapter...

thats because i want to show all the aspects of fleur and ellis' relationship (with ellis' condition)

i want to show you guys what happens when he'll remember her, ignore her etc...

but next chapter will be posted soon.