the oblivion

bittersweet ending

bittersweet ending.

the skies were grey, there was a sinking feeling and everywhere i turned to there was always the color black.

the lanes family stood in the corner, ellis' parents holding gregg as he cried with his little hands covering his face.

everyone had a pitiful and grieving look on their faces, there was no happiness nor hope.

i stood in the middle of the crowd, watching the chaos turn into a massive surreal blur. but this was reality.

ellis was gone, forever.

it was morning on a monday when i went to the hospital. just the day after i knew about his condition.

i saw their parents crying outside ellis' room, then they looked up to me and gave me this pained look. mr. lanes shook his head as he held his wife who bawled her eyes out.

i knew what was happening.

then i ran inside his room and saw no one. the sheets were clean as if no one was there, everything was normal. but it wasn't, ellis wasn't there.

i went outside and mrs. lanes hugged me as i sank down on the chair and cried. she held me as if i was her own as she rubbed my back. we held each other as we mourned.

"fleur, honey, take a seat." mrs. lanes held my shoulder as she guided me to the seat beside her. then i was back to the funeral and into reality.

i gave a small nod as i carefully sat. i've been weak and silent for days, still unable to register the fact that ellis is gone.

mrs. lanes placed her arm on my shoulders and pulled me closer. i took a quick look at gregg who was staring at ellis' coffin like he was trying to tell him a message.

the ceremony started and after minutes, mrs. lanes tapped me and told me that it was my time to speak.

i smoothed out my dress and walked to the front. i passed by ellis' lifeless body and stood at his side.

i drew out a breath, "i do not know how to start this because i do not know a life without ellis......."

all i was thinking about as i spoke was how much i would miss ellis. and not just physically, i would also miss the feeling of waking up in the morning and knowing that he was there. i would miss how he would tell me about things i didn't know, i would miss being happy because of him -even if he would still be able to make me happy just by being in my thoughts. i would miss that boy who i gave all my love to and the boy who gave me his.

i just miss ellis and i would give anything just to tell him right at this moment how much i love him.

the end.

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do you guys think i should continue the eulogy? because i think its too corny hehe. :))

if there will be, there will be like another story with fleur's letters to him and the eulogy will be included at the end.

anyway,

thank you for you guys for choosing to read my story despite all the emotions and pain i give you.

you should all know that i would want this story to have a happy ending but it's the truth.

i also think that it's a happy ending because as they say: he's in a better place and that fleur would be able to set free. but their love is still intact because it never broke or died.

and ellis left happily. :)