Love Yourself First | BTS FF

3 - new me

            

<JK POV>

As she approaches Taehyung's seat, she sees that I have my chair back so much that with her fat legs, she'd never be able to move through without having to trouble me, which I know she won't do.

"Can you please move?" she asks quietly, although loud enough for the class to hear. Surprised she said anything at all, I ignore her, wanting Tae to stay by my side. I glance up at Tae to see him eyeing this girl, knowing he feels the same way I do.

As I sit there, slanted back on my chair with my head down staring at my table, I see a hand suddenly take my phone, and moments later I hear it being set down somewhere on the ground. Confused, I look up to see my phone placed about a meter away from my desk, on the floor...with that girl standing next to it. She has a slight smile on her face and walks back to where she was, still waiting for me to move my chair.

"The hell?" I say under my breath. I can hear the rest of the class also being confused, each student turning to their seatmate with scrunched up eyebrows. I stand up to retrieve my phone, glancing back at that girl who's still standing there.

As I kneel down to get my phone, I hear some of my peers gasp, and some laugh...At what? Immediately I turn back to my seat...but where's the girl? She's no longer waiting for me to push my chair in, she's already in her seat.

Oh I see...she wanted me to get out of my seat so she could push my chair in herself...how smart...and annoying as hell. As I realize this, I slowly make my way back to my seat and eye her up and down. The class has settled at this point.

I can't believe I have to deal with this for the rest of the year.

<Y/N POV>

That'll teach you to mess with me...holy crap though I didn't think that'd actually work!! He's probably a kingka at this school, do students hate me now??? I think as I sneak a peak across the room. Almost all the students have piercing red glares, like lasers staring down at me.

All students except two: my brother who has a wide smile across his face, giving me two thumbs ups and rocking back and forth in his seat. I think he's proud his little sister stood up to a bully. Ha, I almost forgot I've never had you in my class before. Well you just wait, there's more where that came from. And the guy sitting next to Joe also doesn't look like he hates me...I think his name's Taehyung? Jungkook's old seatmate.

Wow, he's seriously good looking. My brother looks like trash sitting next to him. That's saying a lot considering Joe was voted best visual in his old middle school class, and American beauty standards are very different from Korean beauty standards, yet his American peers still voted for him.

While all eyes are on me, either filled with hatred or brotherly love (only from Joe), Taehyung just looks annoyed. And not just that, he's not actually looking at me at all. As he sits down next to Joe, I see his chest drop like he just sighed heavily. My brother tries to greet him but Taehyung ignores him, crossing his arms as he leans back on his new seat.

I don't think much of it; he's probably just annoyed he has to part ways with Jungkook. I wouldn't understand why, Jungkook looks like the strong and quiet type with no actual brain.

After I take my school books out of my bag, I sneak a quick glance at him and find him staring at me, partially with anger, and partially with disgust. I stare back, widening my eyes and raising my eyebrows once again. What, what?? You wanna go??? Let's go bro, I ain't scared of you.

After a while of this staring contest, he finally blinks and looks away, scoffing. I smile and think to myself: ha, Y/N 2, Jungkook 0 and turn back to class.

Self conscious of how I look, I look down at my lap. Gosh, thank god for the skirt. If I was wearing leggings or something it'd be so obvious how my girl thighs are even thicker than a guy's. ;(

Class seems pretty boring but this year I'm determined to get good grades. High school grades are super important now! Let's do this.

Although I'm super freaking motivated to do well, the person next to me is kind of dragging my enthusiasm down. He basically slept for the entire class, other than passing notes back and forth with Taehyung. He'd chuckle once in a while from Taehyung's notes and glance up at me, laughing even harder.

"Jeon Jungkook! Kim Taehyung! If you keep passing notes I'm giving you both a 2-hour detention! Now do you really want to start off your school year like that??" Mrs. Sun yells at them, throwing half her white chalk at Jungkook, making the class duck and laugh at the same time.

"Sorry Mrs. Sun, but when a girl like this is sitting next to me, I can't help but talk about it." Jungkook replies.

I feel my ears go bright red, and a lump in my throat begin to build. I scrunch down in my seat, feeling smaller than ever. Well shit, I've had tons of fat-shaming before but no one's ever been so straightforward.

I open my mouth to say something witty back but nothing comes out. What the hell? I've never been stuck on my roasts before.

As the class snickers, Mrs. Sun looks confused and asks "What do you mean a girl like this?" I look up at her speedily, giving her a did you seriously just ask that?? look. The class turns back to Jungkook, awaiting his answer.

He looks stuck for a moment, like he's deciding on whether to respond or not. "Well," he begins, "you know, someone that looks like they ate someone else." He laughs as he finishes his statement, followed by the class bursting into laughter.

Mrs. Sun looks like she's seriously about to spit some fire at this kid, but stops herself as she sees me pass by her on my way out of class, away from the chaotic teens. I walked out of there lightning fast, blocking my face from any further embarrassment I could get from how I cry.

I hear faint trails of laughter as I jog down the hallway towards a bathroom. I burst in the door and lock myself in the closest stall and sit down, weak in my knees. I cover my face and sob my heart out, not caring how much ugly noise I make.

Staying here, it's gonna be a lot harder than I thought...if it's really going to be like this all the time, with my ex-best friend running the social groups of the school, and those painfully good looking guys constantly fat-shaming me, not to mention probably having to go through that every single day sitting next to one of them, it's time to make a gosh-dang change. Time to lose weight. <things gon' get more interesting now>

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Sorry if the plot development is kinda slow and there's not a lot of cliché things happening, w/ shy girls and seductive teachers and what-not. After reading BTS fanfics on wattpad I've seen a lot of repeated plot development happening so I wanted to write something different. This has been in the back of my mind for quite a while now but I've finally started to do it. There's a lot more coming so please stay tuned~

Just recently starting to love myself, and then seeing BTS's Love Yourself album and overall theme, I hope this story helps some of you achieve what Y/N will achieve. This story is loosely based off of my real life experiences so you'll know stuff is real and trustworthy.

Please share and comment telling me what you think so far! I'd love to know where you'd like the plot to go.