my humanity

chapter 11-leaving mystic falls

I couldn't go back to sleep so I finished writing my letters I am trying to not feel guilty all the time for everything but alcohol don't help and I don't want to smoke and I cant talk about it with anything.

my dearest friend Stefan Salvatore,

I will miss you I am not good at goodbye so I'm writing letters and I problem will be back but not any time soon I need you to do me a favor watch out for your brother I need you to help him when I am not here to watch out for him I don't want you guys to come after me If I am ready I will be back I just need you to not let him look for me I love him with all of my heart but I need to go.. Stefan if you need me just remember the first time we kiss. I want you and Elena to be happy.

with all my love,

Harper Gilbert

the next letter will be to my little brother Jeremy and my aunt jenna

dear Jeremy and aunt Jenna,

Jeremy I love you bubba If you need me just email me and I will be there to message you back day or night. and aunt Jenna I just want to thank you for letting me to be me and now I just got to go back and I'm sorry for getting mad at you for not telling me that we were adopted. I love you both.

with all my love,

harper

I will message everyone else when I get there so night I will leave mystic falls. I got ready for works I went downstairs to find Stefan fixing breakfast I will sure the hell miss that every time I stared at him with a tear slid down my cheek I wiped it away before he seen it I walked behind him and whispered what ever happens I will miss you Stefan. he looked at me as I walk to pick up my keys then I went to work. as I walked in to my job for one last time before everyone got here I let Matt know that I will be leaving town but I don't know when I will be back don't tell Damon where I'm going please I need to get out for a little while. then we turned the sign around to open and we took peoples order like normal and if you need to get a hold of me call Jacobs number please I wrote it down for him but what ever you don't give it to Damon okay. he ask me why was I leaving and I said because I haven't been able to sleep and I'm visiting family so I will be okay.

I was on the cook line today so I could be able to think to myself about my decision to leave I made my mind up and I know it is the right but to leave Damon I love him but to know if I am in love with him I need to put some distance between us so I know how he feels and how I feel. Matt came told me that Damon was looking for me and I stopped cooking see what he wanted. I looked in to his eyes and I have to get back in the kitchen to cook.

after I work I went home to get my things gathered up and waited when everyone wasn't paying any attention I had Jacob take my bags outside then I put Elena's letter on her pillow and then I put Jeremy and Jenna on the counter then I grabbed my keys off the stand and I stood looking at the house for a minute and it is already dark outside so I had Jacob drive over to the Salvatore's house I went into there intended to leave the letters and leave but Damon and Stefan was sitting talking about something I just wanted to see you guys I stated I hug both of them and kissed Damon and it lasted for ten minutes then I pour me a glass before I left. I left in under Neath the glass I sat down. I kissed Damon again as I was getting ready to walk away he pulled me back and kissed me again. I walked outside lean up against the house letting tears out of my eyes then I climb into my car and Jacob drove off. he glance at me are you sure you want to leave I shrugged my shoulders I don't know but I need to. as he was driving i glance in the mirror one last tim and i drifted off to sleep and dream of Damon and me in the future. then i woke up to jacobs phone ringing i rubbed my eyes and i asked who was it and he said it was Elena and i grabbed the phone tears falling down im sorry i need to do this ill be back dont know when just dont tell Damon where i am. i think he loves you and just used me so i have to see if time away from me will be a good thing or a bad thing. i love you. i hanged up when i seen the sign now leaving mystic falls. so i fell back asleep.

Damons pov

I went to get something to drink I pick up an envolope that had my name on it. I opened it and read it and yell for stefan and we need to go now. but he wasnt worried about harper I dont know why but I will find her then kick her ass for leaving why would she think that I love anyone else. I went over Elenas house and all harpers clothes were gone I sat on her bed when Elena came in and told me that harper dont me to find her I broke down and cryied because love her I dont want to let her go I refuse to think I lose her she will come I told Elena she has to come back. I will get her back dont care what I have to do I will bring her back to me.