Finding Me (A Joe Sugg / ThatcherJoe Fanfiction)

Chapter Nine: x

"Okay, so. First of all stand up."
I did as he commanded and stood in front of him, only a few inches away. He slowly closed that gap and kissed me slowly. It wasn't harsh and passionate. It was slow, and sweet, and full of care. He stepped back and brushed some hair behind my ear. He rested his hand on my cheek and I closed my eyes and leaned into him. I turned my head and kissed the palm of his hand. His breath hitched in his throat and I smiled slightly to myself. He dropped his hand and reached for the neckline of his shirt. He quickly pulled his shirt over his head and tossed it off to the side. I gazed at his body but quickly turned away when we locked eyes. He took his thumb and index finger and turned my chin so I was looking at him again.
"Since this is your first time, I want you to be comfortable with me okay? I don't want this to be an awkward experience Mary. I want you to enjoy it." He said with complete sincerity in his voice.
I nodded in complete agreement, and slowly started moving my hand towards his chest. I hesitated looking into his eyes to see if it was okay. He nodded and I fully rested my hand on his chest. I put my other hand on the other side of his chest and just observed him. I wanted to learn every line, scar, mole, and birthmark on his lean body. I moved my hands down his chest and onto his stomach outlining his abs. They weren't well defined but they were definitely there. I rested my hands on his waist and massaged little circles into his sides. I moved behind him and ran my hands up and down his back. Being brave I leaned forward and pressed small, dainty, little kisses down his spine. He gasped and I laughed lightly, hugging him from behind. I moved back around and smiled. He smiled too and we each broke out into goofy grins.
"Okay, now if you're comfortable you can...you know." He said gesturing to my nightgown.
"Right, yeah, of course." I said. I reached towards the hem of my nightgown and played with it before slowly pulling it up and over my head.
I stood there in only my underwear and hurried to cover myself. I looked at the ground and felt the familiar tug of my chin with the same two fingers. He leaned down and kissed me yet again, applying only a slight amount amount of pressure. I reached up and ran my hands through his hair, tugging slightly which earned me a groan emitted from his lips. I pulled back and smiled at him.
"God, you're so beautiful." He said running his hands up and down my sides. "How do you feel now?" He asked continuing to run his hands on my body.
"I just really want you right now." I said looking him in the eye. He stared at me with no expression whatsoever. "Joe?" I asked suddenly nervous.
Was I too straightforward? Was I not hot enough for him? Was he second guessing his decision on doing this with me? My questions were all answered when he crashed his lips onto mine, roughly. I gasped and his tongue slipped into my mouth. It was heavenly, as if the entire universe had stopped, just stopped. Like it wanted this moment to be absolutely perfect, and it was. The way he held my head as we kissed, the way we fell onto the bed; never breaking contact, the way we crawled all the way to the top of the bed; still losing ourselves in each other...was perfect.
I wasn't afraid of this anymore; losing my virginity. I wasn't nervous as I let my hands explore all over Joe's body, and I sure as hell wasn't nervous when his hands explored all over mine. All of my senses were heightened. I could hear our heavy breathing and just how fast our hearts were beating. His beating fast, but mine beating a lot faster. I let out a disappointed groan as his lips pulled away from mine, but was quickly quieted when I felt his lips against my neck.
"Lesson number one," he mumbled, kissing my neck. He looked up at me and I looked down at him, "almost everyone has a spot that when you apply just the right amount of pressure," he said kissing all over my neck, until he reached the spot where my neck and jaw met, and I let out a moan. I looked back down at him, embarrassed at what had happened, while he only smiled and continued, "will make them completely fall apart."
I sighed and nodded, letting him know that I understood exactly what he was saying. He nodded and continued kissing, going back to that same spot. I felt the nip of his teeth, and his tongue soothing that same spot over again and again. When he seemed satisfied he moved down, kissing me all the way down to the waistband of my underwear. He kissed each of hip bones and came back up to kiss me softly, but I wasn't having any of that. I flipped us over and straddled him, definitely taking note of a bump in his jeans.
"Right, lesson number one," I said mocking him and kissing him on his neck. I stopped when I heard him groan when I kissed the spot where his neck and collarbone met. I did the same as he did to me, but not nearly as long, I had other plans. I kissed him down his chest, raking my hands down too. I saw it in a movie once and it looked like the actor enjoyed it, so maybe Joe would too. I think he did because he started mumbling incoherently and groaning.
As I reached the top of his jeans I sat up and positioned myself on his legs. I quickly turned around and took off his shoes and socks because in the heat of the moment, I guess he didn't have time to. I turned back around and smiled triumphantly, whilst Joe only shook his head and smiled. I moved my hands up and down his chest, and kissed each of his abs. I sat back up and looked at him.
"Ready?" He asked. I inhaled in deeply and exhaled.
"Hell yeah," I said.
He lifted his butt off of the bed and grabbed his wallet. He opened it up and pulled out a foil package, which I could only assume was a condom. He put his wallet and the condom on the nightstand and turned back to me, grabbing my head and pulling me down to meet his lips. In a flash I was now on the bottom, and he was fumbling with the belt on his jeans. I slapped his hands away and undid his belt, pulling it out and throwing it across the room. I laughed as he tried to unbutton his pants, but again he couldn't.
"Having a little trouble are we?" I asked while unbuttoning them.
"Hey, don't laugh at me," He whined kicking his jeans across the room and hovering back over me.
"Don't worry, I think it's cute," I whispered combing my hands through his hair.
I pulled his head down and reattached our lips for the umpteenth time. This time I knew there was no stopping this. This time I was needy. I grabbed his back like he was the one thing there to keep me from floating away. I scratched it up and down, causing him to moan and kiss me harder. I dragged my hands lower, to the waistband of his boxers, and tugged on them letting him know that I wanted them off, and I wanted them off now. He got the idea and did the same for me. He rolled off of me and pulled off his boxers as I did my underwear. He came back above me and kissed me, this time us feeling every part of each other with no barrier to prevent any skin to skin contact. I moaned as he kissed down my body, hands skimming down over my breasts causing me to moan and arch my back. This time though, he didn't stop where the waistband of my underwear would be, he kept going lower and lower until he was positioned between my thighs. I was so scared, it seemed like my heart was beating ten times faster then it should be.
"You okay?" He asked, probably sensing my nervousness.
"Yeah, can we just...not do that. I'm sorry it's just...I don't know if I'm comfortable with someone's head down there yet," I replied feeling ashamed.
"Mary that's fine," he said coming back up and kissing me on the forehead, "whatever makes you comfortable okay?"
I nodded and reached over and grabbed the condom handing it to him.
"Let's do this," I said.
He ripped open the package and rolled the condom onto himself, throwing the empty wrapper on the floor. He opened my legs and positioned himself at my entrance.
"Ready?" He asked.
"Yeah," I replied.
He slowly pushed into me and I somehow held back the urge to scream out several different curse words. How did girls do this? The biggest thing I've ever had in me was a tampon and that thing is not even an inch in diameter. Now I'm just expected to take a penis in me? What's up with that, well, I mean I didn't have to, but I wanted to. Tears pricked at my eyes and then I felt Joe stop.
"Are you okay? Listen if it's too painful we can stop," I looked at him and shook my head.
"No, we're doing this. I just need to get used to the feeling, you can move now," I said.
He looked at me skeptically, but did as I asked and continued to move until he was fully inside me. It hurt, and it hurt a lot, but I stuck through the pain, I was never a weak person. I nodded my head to let him know he can continue the act and I was fine. It hurt for the first few thrusts, but Joe would lean over and whisper sweet things and kiss me a lot if it ever seemed like I was in pain. Soon the pain was gone and was replaced with pleasure. Joe kissed my neck and I moaned in pleasure. He then took me by surprise and grabbed my leg and wrapped it around him. I screamed out in pleasure as with this new angle he was plunging into me deeper.
"Oh my god Joe!" I screamed, not at all caring what the other people in the other rooms heard. I was in heaven and I was gonna show it.
"Mary, god you feel so good," Joe said kissing my breasts.
"Joe I don't think I'm gonna last much longer," I said meeting each one of his thrusts.
"Me neither," He agreed.
I felt a coiling sensation in my stomach and I think I knew what that was.
"Joe I...I think I'm g..gonna..." My toes curled and my back arched as a sense of euphoria washed over me completely.
"Oh Mary," Joe groaned as he orgasmed at the same time.
We held hands as we both rode out our climaxes. When it was over Joe slowly pulled out of me and tied up the condom and went to throw it away. I winced when he pulled out but hid myself underneath the covers so he didn't see how much pain I was in. I felt bad though, housekeeping was gonna have a hard time getting blood off of the blanket. When he returned he got under the blanket and hugged me from behind. I was sweating at this point and breathing very heavily. Joe returned to the bed and slipped under the covers with me.

"That was.. Beautiful Mary," he said grinning wildly at me and kissing my temple. I cannot believe what just happened a few minutes ago. Joe Sugg and I had sex. THE SEX. Damn, he was good at it too.
"I can't believe that just happened... I still can't," I managed to get out somehow. I looked up at him and he rubbed my belly gently.
"That was special," he replied and for once, I knew it was. The way we looked at each other during the act and now afterwards was like something out of a movie. He ran his hands through his hair and his quiff fell on top of his face. We both laughed and he blew air on it to keep it up.
"I have hairspray in the bathroom," I giggled watching him entertain himself with his failing hairdo. He nodded and went into the bathroom. I closed my eyes for what seemed like forever to replay the images in my mind of what happened. The longing of both of us seemed to intertwine and I loved it. There was nobody I wanted more than Joe right now. His body looked even more Godly than I could have ever imagined, and his butt.... I cannot even describe how firm that was and how you could tell he definitely worked out. I shuddered because I then realized in about a day I would be going home to America, forever. I shook the thought out of my mind. I had to enjoy right now with Joe or else everything would be ruined. The bathroom door creaked and there he was standing naked, pretending to model his hair to me.
"Beautiful darling," I said in a fake accent.
"Why thank you my lady," he bowed and jumped on the bed. "I bet you a million dollars that you want some food right now, am I right?"
I opened my eyes wide and replied, "Joe Sugg. YouTuber, thatcher, and mind reader?!" He pecked my cheek with one of his infamous kisses and continued to kiss all the way to my mouth. He then took his hands and tickled me.
"Joe get off of me, I can't breathe!" I shrieked. People were definitely going to call on our room because of all the noise we have been making.
"Say the magic words!" He continued to tickle me.
"Joseph Sugg is the coolest guy in the history of he world!" I said while laughing hysterically.
"That's my girl!" He stopped tickling me and held out his hand for me to grab. "Let's get dressed and grab dinner downstairs, sound fair? My treat." I nodded and grabbed a pair of jeans and an old shirt, Joe dressed in what he came in.

"Did you enjoy your meal?" He asked me as we walked outside the hotel for some fresh air.
"Of course. It was lovely, and may I say, you Brits have the whole tea thing down," I giggled. He grabbed my hand and held it in his. We stopped walking and he looked me right in the eye.
"I like you Marilyn Stewart. A lot. I don't want you to leave. I want you to stay here and be with me.. Maybe in a date-y way even, but you're my friend nevertheless..." I closed my eyes. "...friend nevertheless..." replayed in my head over and over again. I knew he was going to friend zone me, I knew he just wanted to use me and never see me again. Just because he was some famous jerk from YouTube doesn't mean he has to play with me like that. After all the time we've spent together I was sure he felt a different way about me- a romantic way- but I guess not. I opened my eyes and removed my hand from his.
"It had to be this way Joe. You had to come in and sweep me off of my feet and have sex with me. For God's sakes Joseph, you took my virginity, and you're sad I'm leaving because I'm you're friend? Do you have sex with all your friends?" I started crying a little bit because it hurt me to say those things to him. He probably didn't mean what he said, or at least he put it off the wrong way, but it still hurt.
"No of course not, Mary.." He tried to hold my hand again, but I slapped his hand away.
"Don't touch me Joseph Sugg. Don't touch me ever again. And don't you dare try to contact me ever again. This was a one time thing and I'm glad I'll forget it soon," I turned and walked away from him and raced back to the hotel. My eyes were blurry from my crying and I slowed my pace down as a taxi car rode besides me.
"Marilyn, is that you?" The driver asked. I turned to my right and it was Graham driving. I nodded to him not saying anything.
"Get in," he stopped the car and I got in silently. He drove really slow because we were only a block from the hotel.
"What's wrong? I heard you yelling at a boy.. Is that your boyfriend?" He asked and looked into the mirror to see me.
"No, he's not my boyfriend, he just used me.. I'm sorry," I was using my shirt as a tissue and I was sobbing immensely.
"Do you need a tissue?" He handed me back a box of Kleenex and used most of it up. "Listen, boys are stupid. You don't need them. You're a beautiful young girl and you have a whole life ahead of you.. You'll be fine. Take a hot shower and call me if you need anything," he let me off at the door of the hotel and I waved him off. I hurriedly went to my room and showered. I was so angry at Joe, but more angry at myself. Why would I allow Joe to have sex with me in the first place? We only knew each other for at least six days now and it's not like we were really friends to begin with.. I smacked myself in the head. I am so stupid, I thought. Just then my phone vibrated, I was getting a call from Joe. I let it go to voicemail. 26 missed calls later and I was sprawled on the hotel floor asleep.