Finding Me (A Joe Sugg / ThatcherJoe Fanfiction)

Chapter Eight

It smells good. I didn't open my eyes yet, and the aroma filled my nose and sent me to a whole different place. You know in cartoons when the good smelling food lifts the character up, and when you were a kid you laughed so hard because it could never happen? Well it did. Maybe not literally, but figuratively speaking.
"Morning," I said finally opening my eyes and looking at a perfect boy in my kitchen.
"Hey morning, how are ya feelin'?" Joe looked at me and smiled. His smile intoxicated me and left me speechless. Every time he looks at me I get the same feeling I had at that shopping center. I was excited because he was new, but now I get excited because he has become familiar.
"I'm fine thanks Joe... You made me breakfast?" I said snuggling in the covers.
"Well... Not quite. I made me breakfast," he chuckled and his quiff moved a little bit. It was morning and he already looked like a supermodel. I smiled at his comment. He was too perfect for me.
"You're in my house and you make only yourself breakfast. What kind of institution allows this nonsense?!" I laughed as he looked over at me and stuck his tongue out.
"It's a hotel room darling," he said flopping some kind of breakfast food on a plate and brought it my way. He sat at a desk across from my bed and sat contently eating his breakfast. I pouted because I was famished. My stomach growled and he turned around while I tried to play it off as it never happened, but he knew it did. With a scoff he took a sausage patty from his plate and set it on a napkin to hand to me.
"I could make my own, you know..." I said handing back his patty and going up to the kitchen.
"Do you want to know what happened that night?" He asked out of the blue. I didn't know what to say back because I totally forgot that night, and for some strange reason I wasn't curious enough to want to find out.
"I'm okay Joe, really," I started pouring myself a bowl of cereal.
"We kissed. And by God, it was the best kiss I had ever received. I asked if I could stay and you said yes. That's all we did. We kissed," he said looking right at me. His eyes sparkled like an ocean right after a storm and a little part of me died. Why could I not remember something as special as this? I spilled some milk on the floor because I was so shocked with this news. He rushed over to me and picked up some paper towel to clean the mess up with.
"I can get it," I said quietly grabbing a towel and wetting it. We were both silent cleaning up and I did not want to bring up the last subject again.
"Listen, it was good Mary. I was upset when you woke up and didn't remember.. That's why I let myself out. I don't know how or why you didn't remember, but it kinda hurt my feelings," he cleaned up the last of the mess and looked at me. I grabbed his paper towel and threw it away. He followed my every move with his eyes and stood up besides me. His phone rang and I looked at him while I rinsed out my own towel.
"Hello?" He said into the phone. His eyes were still fixed upon me and I just watched him speak into the phone.
"No I'm out right now..." His face was serious, maybe he was talking with someone important.
"Sorry Zoe," he said looking at his feet and fumbling with his fingers. I started to eat my cereal and I watched him on the phone. He messed with his hair and winked at me.
"I'll film with you tomorrow alright?" Just then a loud voice was yelling at him on the phone and he moved his phone away from his ear.
"Fine," he said and hung up. I looked away because I didn't want him to know I was somewhat disappointed that he would have to leave soon.
"Eh, Mary, I have to leave now... This YouTube stuff really sucks, collabs. and all that... But it was nice seeing you and I'm glad you're safe and um... Yeah.. I'll text you sometime.." Joe was searching for things to say and he played with his hair the whole time. Which was so cute. The whole time we've been hanging out I forgot he was a famous YouTuber with millions of views and followers. It was weird because he seemed... Normal? Of course he was, but besides from leading a normal life outside of YouTube, he had his YouTube life which consisted of millions of hormonal girls screaming his name.
"Yeah, no, I totally understand. You have your YouTube life and I respect that," I said somewhat disappointed, but I wouldn't let him see it, so I smiled and waved to him. He went to the doorway and stopped.
"Mary, you are so wonderful. I love spending time with you and being with you.. I wish you remembered the kiss though, so I know how you feel.. And if you could tell me if I was any good," he laughed and waved back at me. In the same motion he left the hotel room to go film a video. I smiled to myself and suddenly got sad. I wish I remembered the kiss.. In my unconscious mind, I accidentally dropped my bowl and it broke.
"Shit. They're gonna hate me here."