Finding Me (A Joe Sugg / ThatcherJoe Fanfiction)

Chapter Thirty-Three

It was almost mid afternoon when we finally arrived at our destination. I did not imagine being as overwhelmed as I was during the "date". In fact, it wasn't even a date. Joe invited me to go to a movie premiere with him and we were walking the red carpet. Never in my wildest dreams would I imagine that I would be walking the same red carpet as many famous actors and actresses did before me.

"Hello cuties," Caspar said coming up next to us with Layla. We all posed for pictures and the boys did interviews while Layla and I hung back and talked about how crazy it was going from a nobody to a somebody in the length of a few months. In June if you would've asked the old me about dating (and not dating) a famous British YouTuber and living with him, I would have said there was no chance in hell I would even be lucky enough- and here I am. The question about us dating did surface a lot during the many interviews I heard, and he told the anchor that we were, "happily dating and very in love." Which was true. Completely true. Along with the good interviews, there were bad ones as well: such as the ones that said Joe and I ,"only dated for charitable causes because there was no way he [Joe] could stand to be around me." Needless to say, those were the people that crawled from the depths of hell with Satan's hand shoved up their ass. But that's none of my business.

"Marilyn, I'm sorry we weren't in a real date. I'll make it up... I just figured that you'd like this," Joe said wrapping an arm around me. We walked up to get ready to go inside and grab our seats when a few other YouTubers that I met at a party awhile back showed up.

"Mary right? You look beautiful," said a boy with brown hair. He was with Joe's sister Zoe, so I knew that was her boyfriend... What was his name again... Crap.

"Thank you! How are you Zoe?" I asked her as we hugged. I shot her a look that said help-me-I-forgot-your-boyfriends-name.

"I am doing great. Alfie and I are doing wonderfully aren't we?" She snuggled up to his chest a little and she winked at me.

"Oh, Alfie... Zoe, it's been so awesome catching up," I said shaking both of their hands and moving to catch up to Joe who was walking fast in front of me. They waved to me and caught up to Joe.

"This is wonderful, I'm happy you brought me here," I said grabbing his hand and smiling wildly. He looked back at me with a smile that could brighten up a room and he leaned down to kiss my temple. My short stature always meant that Joe and I could do cute romantic things people dreamed about because I was a foot shorter than him.

"I wanted to bring you here regardless of what happened today. I've actually been planning this for weeks when I found out about it. Even when you hated me and wouldn't let me sleep with you," he said as we entered the theatre with a bunch of other YouTubers and famous people.

"Oh shut it," I rolled my eyes at him and he did the same- mocking me. Moments like these made me love him even more than ever. His smile made me so happy and his eyes showed me a side of him I would never truly see. He was perfect- he is my everything. We got seats next to a bunch of people we knew and within a few minutes of getting settled down the lights turned off and we were ready to watch the premiere of a new movie.

--- Joe's POV ---

Even with the lights shut off she was all that I could see. During certain parts of the movie the screen was so light that she glowed. Like an angel, I thought to myself. She is an angel. Never in my life had I been so madly in love with someone I would do anything for them... Besides Anna. Marilyn and Anna were so different, yet so alike, it was no wonder I fell for Mary as hard as I fell for Anna. It was shameful to base my expectations from Mary how I got treated by Anna, but I did. Marilyn deserves a better man than me, and she knows it. I can tell from the constant break ups and how much she cries at night. I swore to myself I wouldn't tell her this, but sometimes she cries when she sleeps. It makes me feel worthless to watch her rot in this world while I'm healthy. Were we even together? I thought about this question everyday and every night when she falls asleep next to me. All I want is her to sleep next to me forever and for her to tell me she loves me. I imagine myself as quite the sap, but in situations like these, this is all I could ever want.