Meant To Be

Mind Changes

I thought about it long and hard. Happiness or hell? Justin and I had always occasionally flirted. So, I made my decision.

I replied.

Me: I choose you.

Justin: What? Are you serious?

Me: I'm serious. I'm done being unhappy all the time.

Justin: So let me do this the right way, will you go out with me?

Me: Yes.

There was no going back now. On August 19th, 2017 I began dating my best friend.  I had called Josh prior to replying to Justin and broke up, for the second time. It was pretty rough the first month or so.

For the first month, I hated it. I'd felt as if I was forced to be with Justin, other wise, I would've lost my best friend. I had kept reassuring Josh things would go back to normal, but lord knows that never happened. I'd finally found happiness, so there was no possible way I was leaving Justin. Little did I know, I'd found my forever. My soul mate.

Eventually, I gave up on Josh and focused on my relationship with Justin. I knew deep down that Justin was who I was meant to be with. He was the only one who truly cared.

Justin, Kayleigh, Thomas and I went to this convention where Justin first felt comfortable to hold my hand, which was nearly 2 months into the relationship.

Slowly, Justin trusted me with more and more of him, from hugs, cuddling, secrets, but kisses had yet to come.