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NEW BEGINNINGS

MARILYN

"Thank you for everything, I will see you on the 19th" I reassured the nurse, she nodded and handed me a packet of papers.

"Again, congratulations, we'll see you next month okay?"  She spoke, I nodded before saying goodbye. I looked down at my folder of bull shit and smiled. As I drove home in silence I couldn't help but let my mind wander. I pondered on my current situation and wondered how everything would go?

Would Colson and I work out? It's been a long decade and at this point, I just want some stability in my life, I may not act like it but at this point, even I'm starting to route for him. His intentions are good, he just doesn't know how to make progress with me, we move a couple of steps forward, but with every mistake we make we move a whole lot more steps back. Something always happens when we think everything's good.

My car came to a stop at my house, and I shook my head, there Colson was, in all of his glory sat on my front steps. I really gotta move. At this point I have to just be grateful he decided to wait outside. I put my car in park and shoved all my papers in my purse. I opened my door and unclipped my seat belt before sliding out of the car.

"Aren't you supposed to be on tour?" I asked as I clicked the lock button on my key,

"Yeah, but we got a show out here, thought I'd stop by" as I approached my front door and I clutched my purse closer to my body, attempting to be unbothered by Colson's presence.

"What are you doing here?" I questioned finally, fiddling with my keys, I finally stuck the right key in the door and twisted it open.

"I wanted to talk" he spoke simply, he followed closely behind me "I can't go another day without figuring out what's going on between us, I miss us MJ, fuck that, I miss you."

"Colson, I can't do this right now" I mumbled, my head was pounding all of a sudden. I made my way into the living room and stumbled to the couch, quickly I plopped down,

"Are you okay?" Colson approached me, I nodded before squeezing my eyes shut, I dumped my purse out onto the couch and shuffled through the contents, once I found the bottle of nasty green juice I quickly twisted off the top and took a large sip of it.

"I'm just lightheaded, I'll be fine" Colson nodded, he took a look at me before his eyes wandered over the couch. My eyes widened and I quickly started shoving all of my papers back into my purse, Colson grabbed the last paper from my hands and I stood up quickly. I reached for the paper in his hands and attempted to take it from him but he pulled away and stared at the words on it.

"I fucking knew it" he exclaimed angrily,

"Give me the fucking paper, Colson, This doesn't involve you,"

"Fuck you mean? It's my kid too" he paused shortly "You're pregnant MJ, this is good news why are you angry about it?"

"I don't know if I'm gonna be able to carry this baby Colson" I exclaimed truthfully, my breath was shaking along with my hands
"I wanted to stay away from everything until I got into my second trimester, I just wanna make sure that I don't have another miscarriage. I know if I have another one I'll hate myself, and you'll hate me too" I cried pathetically.

Colson's body visibly relaxed before he pulled me into his chest, "That's why you left me?" He questioned as I sobbed, "I could never hate you, Marilyn, I wasn't there to take care of you last time, this time I'm here now baby," he assured, he wrapped his arms around me, I attempted to fight him but he just held me, I gave up as he rubbed my back.

"I got you" he whispered into my hair,

When I finally regained my strength I pulled away from Colson and looked up at him,