Falling Away With You

CHAPTER 2: HEAD UNDERWATER

Song: Toby Lightman - Head Underwater

The moment I laid my back on the bed, I called my mum to let her know that her beloved daughter failed the interview. Pathetic I knew, but I refused to sugarcoat things―particularly with my mum. She could see through almost everything when I told her lies. I inhaled and exhaled lazily. How could I do this? I didn't want to let her down, but I should tell her the truth. Mum had every right to know about my failure today. She wouldn't judge or discourage me anyways, so what was I afraid of? I fished my phone out of my sling bag and press-hold number one button.

I could hear the line ringed monotonously before someone picked it up, "Hello." No, this wasn't something that I expected. Why did it have to be Andy who answered my mum's phone? I groaned frustratingly.

"Hey, Andy. Why are you the one answering my call?" I spoke crisply. What? I couldn't help being a bitch when it came to Andy. I knew he paid for my flat and tuition, but I still disliked the man.

"Watch your tongue, Luxia. Regina is sleeping. I won't wake her up just because you called." I rolled my eyes at his remark. This was the reason I couldn't like him. Despite his generosity towards me, he was still an annoying middle-aged man―in short, a prick.

I huffed irritatingly on the speaker. "All right, I'll call again later." I disconnected the line and rolled my body so that I was facing my pillow.

Today was absolutely such a bad day. I had a hunch that if I managed to come on time for that damn interview, I would have gotten the job. My mum would have cried in joy. I could have shown Andy that I was not a good-for-nothing daughter; that I was more than an undergraduate with flying colours; that I could be a successful woman and have a great career. Now, everything was shattered on the floor like Andy's favourite China which I accidentally nudged off the kitchen worktop.

I laid my head sideways and stared blankly at the wall. I was an adopted daughter, I didn't know my real parents, and I was stuck in this sickening life. No, I should be grateful that Thomas and Regina found me and adopted me, or else I would still have become a beggar loitering around on the street. I was not adopted from an orphanage. Thomas and Regina found me crying on the pavement. I was ten, I was not dumb. However, when they asked me about my parents, I was unable to recall anything as to who they were and their whereabouts.

My foster parents thought I was crying because I lost my mum and dad, but I had a feeling that it wasn't the case. I didn't know how I was so certain of it. I guessed I had lived for almost six years of my life on the streets when they found me. I didn't know for sure. I couldn't remember why; I thought it was my fate. My fate of being dumped by own parents and recalled nothing about my past. I was glad I was incapable of remembering it. I didn't need anything from the past anyways.

People who had amnesia would be happy when they got their memories back, but I wouldn't. Hell, I didn't even consider myself having an amnesia or anything like that. I knew it was destined for me to not remember anything. And I was beyond joyful about it. Slowly my consciousness drifted away and my eyelids started to shut. I fell asleep without realising it―my body was floating in the air towards the clouds. And suddenly, a banging sound came and crashed me back to reality. I was up instantly. The loud noise left me with a headache whilst I was trying to gain my energy to sit down on the bed. Shit. I cursed under my breath.

I walked towards the door reluctantly and opened it slowly. "For turtle's sake, Celine. Stop banging on my door. You could destroy it, you know." I moved away and sat on my only sofa in the living room.

She followed me and took a seat beside me. I clutched my head with my palm and began to massage it a little bit. "Why are you even here?" I snatched her phone which she placed on the coffee table and saw the clock. "It's 9 PM, Celine. You should be home by now. Gabriel would hunt you down."