Johanna's Confessions

Chapter 9 Day 8

"Jo! Come here baby." He says his voice sweet like honey. 

She walks quietly to the bedroom, peeking her head in the door frame looking into his eyes. Hazel, her favorite eye color. She walks over to the bed, a smile on her lips. She leans in to kiss him and he grabs her face. His hand squeezing her head tightly.

He throws her down onto the bed saying, "When I ask you come you should run to me like your on fire. If you weren't so stupid, I wouldn't have to do this to you." He slaps her once and she raises a hand to here face. A tear slips down her cheek. 

He pulls her into a embrace. He tries to kiss her but she pulls away. "Why do you have to be such a bitch?" He asks sitting up on the bed, the boy turns his head as he hears the lock being opened. "You whore, you said your parents would be gone the whole weekend. You slut." He grabs his clothes and starts towards the window.

She stands a hand still on her cheek. He grabs her gentler this time and kisses her softly. Than he is gone.

"Johanna. Johanna? Wake up, darling." Nurse Blue's brown eyes are looking into mine. She wipes a tear away from her eye. "Why are you crying dear? What happened?" She asks genuinely concerned. 

I wipe my face and pull away from her. I pull my hair into a pony tail while saying, "Nothing, nothing. I didn't even have a dream. I'm not sure what happened." 

I can see her expression change her face turning from a worried look to a solemn frown. She gets up and leaves stopping at the door giving me a look. I turn away, I don't want her to see me cry. A tear falls down my face as I get up. I grab a band tee and some black yoga pants.

I slip on the clothes and walk out to the day room to get my check. London looks at me withe a forgive me look in her eyes. I turn away from her, and I see Marc standing next to me. I move closer to him and and brush my hand against his. He touches back. I smile and sit down in the chair to get my BP checked. 

Breakfast was...okay let me just explain what happened. Here is the short version:

Alright so i sat down next to Marc and Nurse blue opened my milk carton. I used all my tricks to stall eating, but than something really bad happened. I want talking to London, she hadn't apologize about what happened last night. So i made a decision to not talk to her till she apologize. 

"Quit stalling Jo, just eat your goddamn food," She says as she takes a bit of her apple. 

I take a deep breath, "Don't. Ever. Call. Me. That." I give her the death glare. 

"What Jo? You don't like that. Does that bother you?" I know she can see my face getting red, I am about to scream when she starts again. "Oh what did some one make fun of you? Aw every one. The sad little rich girl doesn't like a nick name. Let's all be gentle to her." She gives me a 'mean girl's' look. 

I push my tray forward with force, my milk spilling all over the table. "When you decide to not be a bitch. Than maybe ill tell you what it's like to be abused by some one you love." I walk out of the cafeteria. With her yelling at me. 

"That's right bitch, run away. And for you information you are fat and ugly. Run away little slut." She yells her voice turning into the voice of him. I loved him but he betrayed me. I want him. No I need him. 

~1:00 (after lunch)~

Lunch was uneventful i spent it sitting at the day-room table all by myself. Well not really, because Nurse blue was there. McCormick comes to get me after my 'puke hour' is done. I see my sketch book under his arm, and I grab it immediately.