Bad habits

18

I wrapped the ace wrap around my rib cage and threw a sweatshirt on. It was the only thing I could wear that didn't make me want to cry from the pressure on my ribs, I pulled up my leggings and walked towards the front door "how's your ribs?" my mom asked looking up from her tablet

"Fine, I'm going out" I grabbed my keys and slipped my moccasins on

"Becareful" she yelled as I shut the door

I got in the car and drove to Sams house. I hadn't seen him since the fight, which was 3 days ago "Sam" I shyly smiled as he opened the door

"Rose" he smiled moving so I could come in "no ones home"

"Are...are you okay?" I asked wrapping my arms around myself

"I am now" he smiled rubbing the back of his neck "listen I'm really sorry, I started something I couldn't fin...."

"What's he talking about? hit it and quit it?" I asked wanting answers

"It was freshman year, I started drugs. It was dumb. Leona worry" he shook his head

"No, what does he mean? how...how many girls?" I asked not wanting the number

"I don't remember" he whispered

"Yes you do" I sternly said

"A few" he looked at the floor

"How many is a few?" I asked biting the inside of my cheeks

"It Doesn't matter it was freshman year" he looked at me

"It matters to me Sam" I yelled

"Why?!" he yelled back, taking me off guard

"Because Sam I havent....you know. And you were my first kiss..." I trailed of feeling tears form

"Rose.." he reached his arm out, but i rejected me

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have came here" I shook my head heading for the door

"Rose" he yelled again grabbing my waist and shutting the door, pushing my back against it "it was only like 6 or 7. I was a freshman and really had no clue what I was doing. We had to quit cause on if the kids ended up getting a girl pregnant" he looked at me. His face was dangerously close to mine.

All I could smell was his cologne and the fresh mint of his breath "I'm sorry" I looked away from him

"For what?" he asked using his hand to bring my eyes back to him

"For being...you know" I looked around catching his eyes every once in awhile

"For being a virgin?!" he laughed

"Don't laugh" I smiled

"Babe, if anything I should be sorry for being such a man whore" he smiled

"Yeah, you jerk" I looked at him "way to be a man whore"

"I'm sorry" he smiled resting his forehead against mine

I wrapped my arms around his neck and played with his hair, his hands trailed to the small of my back and stayed there bringing me into a very passionate kiss "wait Sam" I mumbled against his lips

"Hmm?" he asked kissing my jaw

"What did you owe Colton?" I asked as he kissed my neck

"Money" he looked at me "why?" He asked kissing my collar bones

"From what?" I asked tilting my head back

"Are you going to talk or make out?" He asked looking at me

"I liked doing both" I laughed

"I can't do both" he smiled

"Can we talk?" I innocently asked

"Yeah" he smiled

"Are we going to sit down?" I asked motioning towards the couch

"Babe, if I take you to the couch, we won't be talking" he winked

"Oh" innocently blushed

"I'm kidding" he smiled looking me up and down. I'd never had a guy check me out, let alone let me see him check me out "or am I?" he teased biting his bottom lip

"Shut up" I rolled my eyes still playing with his hair "wait so why do you owe Colton money?" I asked

"Some things I bought from him" he shrugged

"What?"i asked

"You ask so many questions" he smiled "and I bought some things off of him, just leave it at that"

"When?" I asked

"I bought it on Sunday after we hung out and said id have his money Monday, but I didn't. So in Friday he confronted me and shit went down" Sams hands had left my back, leaving me vulnerable. I clung on to his neck, trying not to leave our position

"Oh" I said again

"You understand I'm toxic right?" he looked me in the eyes with all seriousness "I'm going to say things I don't mean, I'm going to do things I don't mean. I've grown used to this life style, and it'll take a while to change"

"You don't have to change, I fell for this Sam not the old Sam" I looked at him "I realize I'm not going to approve of everything you do, but if your honest with me, we won't have a problem" I smiled back at him. Kissing his nose

"I'm supposed to kiss your nose" he laughed looking at me

"I beat you too it" I stuck my tongue out

Sam tried to bit my tongue was I brought it back in to my mouth "so close" he winked, pushing us back against the door "are we done talking?" he asked

"For now" I smiled as his lips crashed on to mine, and his hands wandered all over my body, but found their way back to my back to hold me up

"Wait how's your ribs?" he panicked

"Fine" I rolled my eyes

"Are you sure I'm not hurting you?" he asked

"Yes Samuel!" I nearly yelled. Angry about the lack of contact

"Calm down" he teased kissing me again