My Personal Remedy

Time To Go

I sat in my room pretty much the rest of the night and thought. I thought about how I didn't want to die, and that I didn't even want cancer. Why couldn't it have happened to someone else? Why me? I thought until I fell asleep.

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*The Next Morning*

We are moving in a little less than a week. I have to go into the hospital. Since all of my family lives in Texas they wont see me since we are moving.. My biggest wish is to be cancer free. And to meet Drake. I would love to be cancer free and to meet Drake. I walk downstairs into the kitchen and get a cup out of the cabinet and get the milk out of the fridge. I pour some milk into my cup and look down. My nose is bleeding. Again.

"Gross!" I say, almost yelling.

"What?" My mom asks me.

"My nose bled into my milk!"

"That is disgusting." my brother chimed in.

"Be quiet. You aren't the one with cancer." I snap back at him.

"Both of you stop." my mom says angrily. It is really hard for her to have a child with cancer.

"I'm going to pack a bag for the hospital." I say as I walk out of the kitchen and start to go upstairs.

"What's up?" my dad says, scaring me to death.

"Going to pack a hospital bag."

"Okay. Talk to you later I guess."

I walk into my room and go straight to my closet and get a bag out. I'm not really sure what you wear at a hospital so I just walked over to my dresser and put 4 pair of jean shorts in my bag. I grabbed 4 shirts. A pale orange and white

v neck, a green Marshall University v neck, 2 aeropostale v necks. I am just realising how many v necks I own. I pack my gray vans, my black vans and some white vans.

I also pack 2 pairs of jeans. I seriously don't know what to pack to be staying in a hospital. I also pack pink flannel pajama pants and a pair of purple fuzzy pajama pants. I pack 3 pairs of shorts to wear to sleep in. I also put $60 in the side pocket of my bag and zipped it up.

"Can I come in?" I hear my brother say from the hallway.

"Yeah." Almost before I reply my brother is walking in my bedroom. "What do you want?"

"I'm sorry I was making fun of you. I just don't really know how to deal with the fact that you have cancer and that I won't see you for a while after just a couple of days."

"Its okay. I know it can't be easy at all for mom, dad, you, or any of the family."

"I'm just scared for you."

"Thanks but I know I can live through this."

"I know. You're an amazing person that can do anything. Even fight cancer like a boss."

"Thanks big brother. I love you."

"I love you too." my brother says and hugs me. That might even just be the tightest he has ever hugged me.

"I'm gonna miss all of you guys. I will really need you bothering me while I am in the hospital. I will miss it."

"Well we will definitely miss you too."

"Well, brother. I am going to try to get some sleep and not think about having cancer and how much I am going to miss having you, mom, and dad around all the time."

"Okay. Do you want me to turn the lights off?"

"Yes, please. And thank you."

"Goodnight, sister."