Blue eyes and the key

Devan's thoughts

Devan's POV
At about 11:30 pm I heard Collins in the kitchen, I also heard giggles coming from Taylor. I heard them walk past my room and into Collins' room.
I don't know what she's doing here so late, but I don't want to know.
Collins didn't even tell me goodnight or anything. He tells me goodnight every night. I don't know. Even though he apologized doesn't mean I'm happy with the situation. I'm still extremely mad at him. He chose a girl over his own brother, how would he feel? He wouldn't last a day in my shoes. There's no way. His life is perfect, he's famous, he has a girlfriend, he doesn't suffer from anxiety and depression like I do, and many more things. He has the perfect life, that I was a big part of. But then Taylor walked into his life. I rolled my eyes. This is exactly why I didn't want him getting a girlfriend, I'm slowly getting erased from his memory, and he's not doing anything about it.

But why should I care..? I have my own life to live... right? Who am I kidding. What life?! My life is: sit in my room, cry, worry, Xbox, depressing, social media, and pretend to go to college because I dropped out and I haven't told anyone yet...
I bet Collins is going to ask Taylor to move in soon, things seem to be taking off with them. But I just want to live here with my brother! Are we still going to pull an all-nighter once a week playing fortnite? Are we still going to have star wars marathons every month? Are we still going to make YouTube videos? Are we still going to talk to each other?!
Only God knows. All I know is that I'm hurt, my heart is shattered into a billion pieces. It wasn't just Collins. My whole life has sucked. But I've never been this hurt. Nothing hurts more than getting lied to, and betrayed by your brother, your best friend, your human diary, partner in crime, your idol, the person who saved your life, your everything.
He has no idea how much he hurt me...