Blue eyes and the key

Collins' plan

It's been interesting having Collins here. He barley talks to me.
"Hey Devan." Collins said barging into my room.
"What?"
"Do you want to go to the beach?" He asked.
"Is Taylor going?" I asked
"No. It'll be just me and you."
I agreed and got ready.

I took a long look at myself in the bathroom mirror. Why am I so ugly. Why am I so skinny. Why do I live. I pulled out the drawer, the one I opened in high school when I was going to cut myself... I picked up the pocket knife, I didn't open it. I just looked at it. Tears filled my eyes and I fell to me knees and sobbed.
I heard footsteps coming towards the bathroom door.
"Devan are you ok?" Collins asked.
"Yep I'm fine! Be out in a minute!" I said wiping away my tears. I put the knife back where it belongs and walked out into the kitchen.

We got into the car and headed towards the beach.
"I'm sorry I told you to kill yourself." Collins said after awhile.
"It's fine." I said looking out the window so he couldn't see the pain in my eyes.
"I need to talk to you about something..." Collins said nervously.
"What's up?" I asked.
"Well... I was planning on proposing to Taylor tomorrow..."
"Oh really." I was shocked.
"Yea, I've been thinking about how I'm going to do it for weeks."

"What's your plan?" I asked.
"Well she loves to snorkel. So I was going to have it in my pocket while we go snorkeling tomorrow, and then I'm going to pull it out of my pocket and propose. I know it's stupid..."

"She'll love that!" I convinced him.
"You really think so?" He asked.
I just nodded and looked back out of the window. I honestly wasn't ready for Collins to have a wife. That just sounds weird to me.

After we got done at the beach, I asked Collins to drop me off at Bailey's. He drove to her house and told me goodbye.
I knocked on her door, thank goodness she answered and not her dad.
"Hey dev! She said pulling me inside. My parents are gone, don't worry." She said giggling.
We went to go sit in the couch, "so, Collins is going to propose to Taylor tomorrow..." I said.
"Aww really?!" She asked excitedly.
"Yea..."
"You don't sound excited about it. What's wrong?"

"Well.. I'm just not ready for my brother to have a wife." I said looking down.
"Hey, everything is going to be ok. We have each other." She said looking in my eyes then at my lips.
She grabbed my shirt and pulled me on top of her. We locked lips and she ran her fingers through my hair. She pulled off my white T-shirt leaving me in my swimming trunks. We looked at each other with affection.
She took my hand and pulled me into her room, she closed the door and then locked it.