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XVIII // Daniel Answer Me

I sip down a glass of vodka down my throat. Taking in the 50% alcohol that had just been pouring down my mouth. Cole had invited me to a party and because I have been using alcohol to fix my depression I said yes. 

"NOAH!!" Someone yells. I ignored their calling and continued to pour the death juice in my red cup. "NOAH FAITH!" They yelled again. 

I turned my head around slowly and looked at Arthur. He held his hand out for me to accept and follow him. I do what he wants and bring my cup along. 

He pulls me up the stairs towards Cole's room. He didn't say a word before he slammed the door shut. "Give me that," He says. He grabs my red solo cup and throws it out the window. 

"HEY!" I yell. He rolls his eyes at me and slams the window shut. 

"Would you stop it, Noah," He snaps at me. He turns to me and points to the gamer chair beside me. I do as I'm told and sit down. "You know hanging out with Cole and I is just so you can get back at Daniel and Kelsey. Just stop because this is not the Noah I fell in love with. You need to stop hanging with us and it pains me to say it," He claims. 

"You no nothing Arthur," I slurp my words due to my body now facing the Alcohol. 

"Really?" He says. He pulls up a stole and sits beside me. "Your hands are crossed like that because your trying to cover your tattoo which is exactly like Kelsey's. Your twiddle with your ring finger due to it having the moon ring you found on tour with the boys last year. You go on four hour runs every morning so you don't waste time at home around the internet and your family. You waste time with Cole and I because you use us to get drugs and alcohol so your body can numb away the pain. You miss them, Noah. You miss and need them a lot but your not allowing your self to just give in and talk to them."

I look up at him. He was a lot more observing than I had remembered. "Arthur you need to leave me be," I say. I didn't want him to leave, I wanted him to stay. But I knew what I had drunken was about to make me do things I didn't wanna do. 

"Noah," He mumbles. His hand makes its way to my thigh and he leaves it there. I look down at his tanned hands and shut my eyes. I felt a tear slide down my cheek. No. 

The door swings open and I open my eyes almost suddenly. Arthur drags his hand away from me. "What are you losers doing up here?" Cole chirps. Arthur stands up and exits the room without giving Cole a reply or saying goodbye to me. 

"He good?" Cole asked. I nod my head before standing up. Cole grabs my hand and looks at me. "Are you good?"

I look up at him and see into his blue eyes. He moves a strand of my hair before leaning in and placing his lips on mine. I widen my eyes bit for some reason I hadn't pulled away. 

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My hand hovers over the call button. I had just kissed Cole. I felt a whole pile of guilt pile over me but I was also kind of happy I finally had something over Kelsey and Daniel. So that's why I pressed the button. 

I brought the phone to my ear and allowed myself to listen to it go to voicemail. But it didn't he answered. "Noah? You okay?" 

"I kissed Cole," I blurted out. Not even a solid hello. Just the truth, see that Daniel I still tell you the truth even if I hate you now. I hear him move from where he was, probably in his bunk on the tour bus. 

"I... deserve that," He says. I hear his voice drop, the lump in his throat has formed and he seemed sad. 

"I mean just be happy I didn't have sex with him and make babies like Arthur did," I claim. I cover my mouth after all of the words came out. Shit, Arthur would kill me if he knew others knew. Especially Daniel who will soon tell Kelsey. 

"Wait you made babies with him?" He says. I pull myself off of Cole's bed and towards the mirror on his closet door. 

"No not with me, I only wanted you to be the father of my children," I say. I burp into the mic and here a light chuckle from Daniel. 

"I don't know how to feel about that. It's just good to hear your voice," He says. I here a slap. I was on speaker. I knew that was probably a face slap due to Daniel probably being with Kelsey and the boys. "Are you drunk?" He asked.

"Maybe a little. I am high but a little drunk," I state. I hear a loud sigh not just from Daniel. "Why do you give a damn?"

"Because you're ruining your life. You have changed so much Noah," He says. I sigh this time, looking at myself in the mirror. There were bags under my eyes showing the lack of sleep I get these days. My eyes were also bloodshot due to the number of drugs given to me today. 

"What do the others think huh?" I asked. I hear whispering, I couldn't figure out who was exactly talking and what they were saying. 

"They think we should talk, maybe I was good for you," He explains. 

"Maybe you were but I can't get over the fact that you slept with Kelsey. I can't get over the fact that as I slept alone in our bed that night you were sleeping with my best friend and vice versa. You know how that feels Daniel? It feels like my heart has been ripped away from me. I feel like I was so stupid not to notice the signs, to not notice that you were clearly not happy. The signs that Kelsey clearly thought our best friendship was ruined so she would do that. I feel bad," I felt tears slide down my face, this was not drunk me talking. It was truly what I had thought over and over again. As I slept in my bed unable to sleep. 

He didn't reply straight away, he just stayed silent. Which I knew was going to happen. "Nugget listen to me. Now I don't know if you will remember this by morning but I am sorry. I am sorry for making you feel the way you do at the moment. The way no one should ever feel in their life. Without you by my side I feel that gap in my heart every day, sleepless nights and drunk nights are not how I am dealing with it unlike you bu-"

He gets cut off by a door swinging open. Which he clearly heard from the other side of the phone. I swing my head to the door to see Cole. "Okay so first off, I just puked all over the bathroom floor and second off I have been looking for you everywhere!"

"Noah is that Cole?" Daniel says in my ear. I ignore Daniel and look at Cole falling on to his bed and pulling his shirt off. 

"I feel so dead right now. Can you stay the night?" He asked. I close my eyes and imagine what Daniel would think right now. 

"I have to go bye," I mumble into the phone.

"Noah no stop listen to me. Go home please, do not stay with him tonight okay! I lov-" The call cuts out. Leaving only the ringing noise in my ear. I fear that Daniel, I still love you too.