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XXIX // Europe Here We Come

"Holy shit that is the cutest shit ever," Jonah says as I tell him about the proposal. So yeah, I decided to take the jump and stumbled onto the Europe tour. Jonah sat beside me on the aisle seat and Daniel happened to be beside me on the window seat. Not planned at all. 

"Yeah but then dad told me we are selling our house. Fuck it feels like absolute shit you know. I mean this year couldn't have gotten even shittier but it did. I wish there was a solution you know," I sighed really loudly but on the plane it just sounded small with the engine and people eating their dinner. We were three hours into our 10-hour flight and Jonah and I just chatted for the first three hours. Daniel hadn't said a word just yet but I could feel his knee brushing against mine when I had my legs on the ground and not on my seat. 

"Well, maybe you need new opportunities?" Jonah says. He smiles and leans into me, his lips brushing over my ears, "Daniel hasn't been watching the show he has just been staring at you. I think you should talk to him."

I shuffled around and looked to Daniel who pulled his head away from me and towards his screen. How smooth Seavey. I tapped his shoulder and he responded by pulling his headphones off and pausing his show. "Oh hey Noah," he says. 

I smiled, "I saw that Titanic was on here. I remember when you said you haven't seen it." I was surprised that I was going to consider to watch a movie with my ex-boyfriend but I was doing this for my brother and his stupid jumps. 

"Yeah I was going to watch it," He says exiting his show and moving his fingers over the screen to the movie category. I pull his hand down and lean forward to grab my headphone jack that could hold two pairs of headphones. 

"Well, that will be stupid if I watch the same thing as you, let's just watch it together. Is that okay?" I plug my headphones in the headphone hole and hold it up for Daniel. 

He smiles towards me, "Yeah that is fine." He places his headphones in and then leans over me to click play on the movie. His arm brushed past my chest which made me gain a few goosebumps. I am not gonna lie that there is something between us still because as he sat back in his chair his blue eyes looked at me and my eyes fell to his lips. 

He laughed softly and then moved his hand under my chin. He pulls it up and pouts his lips towards me. His other hand fell into mine and held it. Why was I not moving my hand and slowing this down?

He leant in towards me and then I remembered that we hadn't even told people of this kiss weeks ago. I can't just kiss him now and here in front of Jonah. I faked a sneezed which pulled my hand from his and my elbow over my lips. 

"Bless you," he implies. I pause the movie and smile softly. What was I doing? I can't just slide back in here and act like what happened didn't.

I need somewhere to think, "I am going to go to the bathroom."

"Oh okay," Daniel says moving back from me. I turned to Jonah who stood up allowing me to go by him. I mouth thank you and he smiles in response. 

We were somewhere in the middle of the seats which meant I had to walk past quite a bit of rows before reaching the bathroom line. The bathroom line had three people already and one in front of me was Corbyn. 

"Hey blondie," I remark as I come to a stop behind him. He turns around and smiles with a bag of peanuts in his hand. He shoves some in his mouth. "How is your trip so far?" I asked. 

"Well some kid behind me threw up barley even three minutes into the flight and it smells like mayonnaise. So if you want to swap then I am down," He says. I laugh at the image of that poor kid throwing up so close to Corbyn's body. 

"I mean I am down to move if you need me too," I explained. This could maybe be my way out. 

He looks me up and down before crossing his arms and sighing, "What is wrong?" Fuck Corbyn could read me so easily like I was a children's book. Mainly because I was all picture. 

"He held my hand and then we nearly kissed. I mean I can't, not now," I explained to him. Someone walks out of the bathroom which makes us move up one. Ever so slowly. Making my heartbeat from Daniel still rise because I hadn't escaped the path yet. 

"It has been two months Noah. Somewhere inside you are thinking that you have to hate him for what he did but you don't have to Noah. You can love him as well, which I'm pretty sure is already happening." He says moving his eyes down to my right hand over my left hand playing with the moon ring on my ring finger. I notice what he was doing and pull my hands apart. 

"I can't just forgive him, it will take time," I admit. Corbyn moves up one again as someone comes out of the toilet again. Corbyn now had one person in front of him due to people cutting and Corbyn being an angel and accepting the fact that others were busting too. 

"Well use that time to mend the relationship not break it even more. Time heals. Life isn't all rainbows and sunshine, we need those storms to help us grow," He became so wise since I left. I don't know what got into him because he kissed me before I left and he was as mad as me towards them. So whoever got in his head really got in there and fixed him. 

"Thanks, Bean, I am gonna go sit back down," I explain. He reaches for my hand and pulls me into him for a hug. You don't understand when you have a Corbyn hug there is no going back, his hugs somehow heal your sorrow for the day. All the boy's hug's felt like that, imagine waking up to that every day. Damn, I miss it. I miss him.

I squeezed past Jonah's legs, explaining that standing up was just useless. I sat down in the middle, breathing slowly while closing my eyes. Suddenly I felt a hand slide into my right hand, our fingers intertwining. I knew it was his because I remembered his hands ever since he dragged me away from that crowd. I didn't know holding hands could save me from anything until his intertwined with mine. 

I open my eyes and turned towards him, his emerald eyes glistening with the aeroplane lights. "You-"

He cut me off, "No, you have pretty eyes." 

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