Rockstars don't cry

Chapter 1

Alison Krauss - When You Say Nothing At All

- Music . They say once music admitted to the soul, becomes a sort of spirit and NEVER DIES  .My name is rokeen  blake  i'm 17  y/o and  i don't like girly things , i hate people , and sincerly the world . i write songs , and i sing too . well only in my room . I don't love much but i'm holding up to a big dream . i'm an orphan , well i consider myself as one 

i never knew my dad  , and for my mom ... well , she is in psychiatric asylum . Scary huh 

It all started when i was just a baby girl , dad wasn't much of a father , we didn't see him much , however , when he's home , he's usually very violant toward us . About Mom . She was a dreamer , she loved singing ,  mother always had a black and pink bandana on her head  , when dad start to become violant and make a mess around the house a huge mess  ... she would take me at the corner of my room , under the window and start to sing her favorite song and mine  When you say nothing at all . 

i remember her hugging me tight, patting on my head , warm tears falling from her bruised eye and the sobs match her angelic voice while singing 

The smile on your face let's me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever I fall
You say it best
When you say nothing at all

"DAMN IT ? FAITH  ! " he threw a cup of glass on the wall . " WHY CAN'T BE MORE USEFULL AND HELP ME EARN MONEY !" his screamings  got evn louder   . Father , lost his 7th job today drunk and high from drugs . 

" I went for an audition last week , i'm waiting for their judgment Dave " she  was lowkey crying holding her bandana between her her hands .    

"  THEY THREW YOU ON THE TRASH ALREADY YOU STUPID WOMAN , YOU CAN'T SING ENOUGH TO IMPRESS A DAMN 4 PEOPLE , HOW CAN YOU IMPRESS THE WHOLE WORLD ! "  he had a knif in his hand 

 That night wasn't peaceful at all . i was silently crying / watching them argue hiding in the other room 

" if you just spend your money on your family instead of drugs and alc..."  

" SHUT UP ! " he hit her , and bruised her left cheek , blood came out from her mouth . As he was about to hit her again i screamed loud enough so he could hear me . " You !" his eyes almost got out of his head  " WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING HERE NOW " he ran after me . 

" Stop ! dave she is your daughter ! Stop it "  mom grabbed him from behind  . he hit her on the stomach with the back of the knif , took her anxious body and locked it upstaires then ran after me again .  

 i hide under my bed breathign heavily as i heard loud footsteps outside my room . the door opened and something grabbed my foot , draging me . it was dad . as he rose his hand which it was holdning the knif i managed to move gaving me only a middle lenght wound above my heart . the screams in our house got even louder and louder which finally made the neighbores call the police. 

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Mom went crazy , they sent her to the  psychiatric asylum , dad in jail for god knows how many years . and i was sent to the orphonage .Scary year , sad walls , dead souls and madness . all i saw there was depression it wasn't a happy place . but at least it had enough food and a bed . a cold bed but still a bed