the note (JAEGAN)

chapter 6

Jay

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"well. you and justin started getting sexual after playing spin the bottle and-." raegan cuts him off.

"how? what were we doing?" i look at raegan and furrow my eyebrows. why he hell does he want to know? he glances at me. i pick my phone up and look at the time. only 7:52 damn. i expected it to be later.

"well you um.. he got on your lap and started making out with you and like trying to take your dick out while we were sitting right here. so i told y'all you needed to go somewhere else. so you got up and grabbed justin's hand, lead him upstairs, and about ten minutes later all we hear is justin scream and say 'you're hurting me!' so a few minutes later he says. 'raegan please stop..' but it didn't sound like he wanted you to stop." Ryan pauses.

"about three maybe five minutes later, he screams, 'god yes raegan!' and so we didn't do anything and it just kept on.. y'all had sex. that's it i guess." he finishes.

i look at raegan and he looks mad at himself..

we continue talking all of us and i check the time.

8:52

"guys come on we gotta go." i say and stand up.

i grab raegans hand and interlock our fingers. he rubs the back of my hand with his thumb and i get butterflies.

the frick?

(time skip to lunch bc hi)

i sit down next to raegan and hold his hand. i see Chloe out of the corner of my eye. she's standing by he entrance. she comes and sits down. she takes raegans other hand. i shoot her an evil look. she rolls her eyes and whispers something in raegans ear.

he slightly bites his lip and nods. he lets go of my hand and gets up, following Chloe. i watch them as they leave, confused. i look back to where everyone else is and sigh.

"what was that?" i hear kenna ask.

"he's probably going to go fuck her or something." i mumble.

ryan scoffs. i sigh and close my eyes.

(time skip till raegan comes back)

"sorry." he whispers in my ear as he sits down. i just shake my head and roll my eyes.

he tries to grab my hand but i scoot away from him and towards Kenna. i lay my head on her shoulder and sigh. "you wanna go talk?" she asks. i nod

we get up and walk towards the exit of the cafeteria. we walk into the girls bathroom because it smells a lot better.

"what's wrong and what's up with the hickeys?"

"i don't know what's wrong.." i fiddle with the sleeve of my hoodie.

"liar."

"no." i mumble.

"justin." i look up at her. "tell me." i continue to just look at her. "is it about raegan?" i nod.

"we-uh.." i chuckle nervously.

"come on."

"we had sex.." i whisper.

"woah!" she yells.

"shh!"

"what how?" she whisper/yells

"we got really, really, drunk."

"shit.." she sounds genuinely concerned. "so you don't remember anything at all?"

"not really.."

she pulls me into a tight hug. i hug back and start crying.

"how many hickeys do you have?" i laugh. and pull away from her, lifting up my hoodie. her mouth gapes open and she stares at the mickey mouse figure on my chest.

"hickey mouse!" she yells and starts cracking up. i laugh and put my hoodie down. we walk out of the bathroom and i wipe my tears. we walk back into the cafeteria and sit down in our normal spots. we all continue talking when kenna randomly yells.

"HICKEY MOUSE!" we all look at her. i punch her in the arm and laugh.

(end of the day)

i raise my hand for the teacher to call on me and she looks at me and looks back at the other student.

this bitch.

i continue to raise my hand and wait for her. "yes justin?" she finally asks.

"bathroom, can i go?"

"yeah whatever. take the bathroom pass.."

i get up and thank her and go to the door. i grab the pass and walk out. i walk down the hallway and hear the door open again. i look back to see raegan coming out. i roll my eyes and turn back around. "wait!" he whisper/shouts.

"what." i don't even turn around.

he runs up to me "what's wrong?"

"honestly everything." i say.

"what do you mean?" he furrows his brow.

"well let's see, you left at lunch to probably go fuck your girlfriend after having sex with me not even 18 hours ago, i had sex the best friend i've had since kindergarten, and my fucking family is gone!" i shout.

"hey calm down." he says.

"no fuck you." i roll my eyes and walk away.

"you know what Justin? you already did!" he yells.

i turn around and run over to him. "shut the fuck up." i look him dead in the eye.

"make me bitch."

"fine." i lean in, grab his jaw and his neck and push him down to where i am, and place my lips on his.

the kiss lasts about three seconds when i pull away.

"how's that for shutting you up?" i ask with a smirk.

"uh...i um..."

"exactly." i turn around and walk away.

(after school and home(aka jays house))

we walk in and i sit on the couch to finish 13 reasons why season one because i haven't finished it because i'm a basic bitch.

raegan walks in about 5 seconds after i put it on and he sits down realllllllyyyyy close to me. i scoot over away but not much because i was RIGHT by the arm of the couch.

"justin..." i turn to him.

"what?"

"i-i have feelings for you.." he whispers.

"excuse me?" my heart flutters with joy. why? i don't like him!!

"y-yeah.." he's really nervous. his ears are bright red and he's playing with his fingers.

i lift his head so he'll look at me.

"seriously!?" i yell.

"yes." he laughs nervously.

"WHY?" i yell.

"i-i'm sorry.."

wOw