the note (JAEGAN)

chapter 45

Raegan

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kenna just got here and we're sitting in the living room in silence as justin comforts her. i'm not good at calming people down or making things better so i just stare at them while this happens. "so.. do you want to try and explain what happened?" he asks, rubbing her four arm. she nods, taking a deep breath and closing her eyes.

she opens them and starts speaking, "well.. a couple days ago Kalvin and I were in my living room, just talking normally and he just says, 'i think we should break up,' like out of no where. so i reply with, 'well why do you want to break up?' and he's like 'i just need a break. so i can think and shit,' like what the fuck is that supposed to mean!?" she yells and takes a deep breath. justin hugs her and she closes her eyes tightly, clearly trying not to cry. "and to make it even better," she pulls away from justin and wipes below her eyes, "i went to the doctor and the baby died." she says and starts actually crying. justin takes his hands and wipes her eyes for her.

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so it's been a few hours and Kenna is still here. we're watching youtube videos right now on our couch, justin sitting closer to kenna because he wants her to feel comfortable and doesn't want to make her upset because of us cuddling. my phone vibrates and i grab it, seeing a text from kale, i unlock my phone and go to our messages.

🍃: hey. can i come over?
me: kenna's here. why did you break up with her?
🍃: omfg🙄
me: don't be like that.
🍃: i don't want to talk ab it.
me: k
🍃: 🙄

i lock my phone again and stand up, starting to walk upstairs. "hey. where ya goin?" jay asks.

"upstairs for a bit. i'm kind of bored i'm going to find something to do." i tell him and he nods, allowing me to continue up the stairs. i get into our room and sit down on the bed. it's only two right now and i'm so bored.

maybe i should go for a walk or something. i stand up and walk back down stairs. i slip my shoes on and grab the door handle. "i'm gonna go out for a walk." i say and open the door.

"ok love you."

"i love you too bye. i love you kenna bye."

"love you too Rae." she says and i go out, closing the door behind me. i start walking towards the park and see a few people also walking around.

a group of girls to be exact. about four or five of them. i ignore them and mind my business. "hey sexy." one says. i look over and see them walking towards me. my eyes widen and i giggle.

"uh hey." i say.

"what's a sexy man like you doing out here all alone?" she asks me.

"well i was at my boyfriends house and i got bored so i'm taking a walk." i say blankly.

her face drops and the girls behind her look at eachother as if i were crazy. "so you're gay? or bi..?" she grabs the string of my hoodie and starts playing with it.

"bi. but i'm in a relationship i don't exactly want any of you. especially you." i say and start walking away. i hear her groan and then the shuffling of feet on pavement, indicating they're walking away.

i reach the park without anymore interruptions and i sit on a swing. the wind starts picking up and it gets sort of cold. it's very quiet and there isn't really anyone else here.

i start swinging back and forth and i hear the leaves rustle behind me. i turn my head and see a guy walking up. he sits on the swing next to me and we exchange hello's.

"hey." he says quietly.

"hi." i reply awkwardly.

"what's your name?" he asks.

"raegan. you?" i ask.

"Adam." he replies.

"cool." i put my hand out and he shakes it. i smile and start swinging more. he swings too and starts playing with the wood chips with his left foot.

"so what's up?" i ask.

"oh nothing. my girlfriend and i got in a fight and i needed some air. i just live through those trees right there." he points behind us. we both look back and i look forward again. he shrugs, "anyways. what about you? what's got you out here?" he asks.

"oh nothing really. my boyfriends house is just down that road and i decided to walk here because i was bored. he's hanging out with a mutual friend of ours that's in a rough place because her boyfriend just broke up with her." i decided not to tell him about the miscarriage with kenna because we just met. but we're like, clicking. you know? he's just really easy to talk to.

"oh damn. that sucks. how long have you and...?" he furrows his brows at me.

"justin." i tell him.

"ah, justin. how long have you and justin been together?" he asks. i check the date on my phone. September 10th.

"well damn. our one year is in five days. what about you and..?" i ask.

"lynsi. and we've been together for seven months. we got in a fight over something stupid. a white lie." he rolls his eyes.

i shake my head and look down, messing with the mulch. "i'm uh..sorry?" i say and furrow my brows.

"no it's fine. she gets pissy about small stuff. it happens a lot." i look up at him again and he just shrugs.

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it's been an hour and Adam and i have just been talking the whole time. i found out he's bi and he's in collage. his dad is in jail and he lives with his mom and step dad when he's here. he says he doesn't like living on campus because of all the noise. he loves video games.

"what's your favorite?" i ask.

"oh. ummmm... over watch." he says. i nod and smile.

"me too." i reply and my phone starts ringing. i take it out of my pocket and see 'Babe🙄💘' "shit hold on." i say and answer it.

"hey." he says.

"hey baby. what's up?" i ask.

"kenna left and i was wondering when you'd be home?" he asks. "oh and jack called. he wants us to come see him."

"oh okay. yeah i'll be home soon."

"okay i love you see you in a bit." he says.

"i love you too." i hang up. "okay soo. uh can i have your number? we can hang out soon?" i ask. he nods and tells me. he gets up and i do to. he brings me into a hug and i realize how tall he is. a lot taller than me. maybe three inches but damn.

we pull away from the hug and say bye and i turn around, walking home.

fuck guys. sorry for the lack of update. i've been trying to keep my grades stable 🙃

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