the note (JAEGAN)

chapter 37

first of all i wanted to thank everyone for 7k reads. i love all of you. :)

Justin

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fuuuuuck. my back hurts like fucking hell. i sit up from my bed. me and rae have been in here all day. raegan sits up to and kisses my cheek.

"are you okay?" he asks.

"uh yeah." i'm not. i feel like crying. my back is killing me.

"no you're not what's wrong babe?" he asks trying to get me to look at him.

"ugggghhhhhhhhhhh...." i groan. "my back."

"oh goodness. what happened baby?" he starts rubbing it with his left hand. i grab my phone and check the time. 3:44

"i have a session soon babe. and it's just from laying in bed all day." i say and get out of bed, putting my hands on my lower back and popping it. he follows and we start getting ready.

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we get to the office and we go in. "ready for your first sesh?" he asks.

"um no." i say back, nervously.

"well..." he trails off.

we check in and sit down.

after a few minutes of raegan getting me ready i hear "justin blake?" i stand up and walk over to her. god i'm nervous...

"that's me." i shove my hands into raegans hoodie pocket.

"well come with me." she says and starts walking. i walk behind her and we walk into a room with a little rock waterfall thingy.

"just have a seat and Dr.Dreyer will be with you in just a second." she smiles sweetly at me. i give a nervous grin back and start fiddling with my fingers that are still in the hoodie pocket. i hear a little knock.

"c-come in.." i say.

"well hello justin." the very young looking woman says to me. i smile at her, feeling a bit less nervous. she seems chill. god my heart is still racing like a whole fucking car.

"hi.." i whisper.

"how are you doing today?" she sits in the chair across from me.

"well i'm very very very nervous. i mean i've been to therapy before but it wasn't because of me trying to die it was just from me being really depressed and only WANTING to die not actually following through with it. and i am just super duper nervous also because you seem really chill and you look nervous as well at the same time and just ahh!" i start actually shaking.

"justin listen to me." i look up at her. "just breath okay?" i take a deep breath and start to calm down again.

"i'm okay."

Raegan

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it's been about and hour since he's gone in the room but that's expected i guess. i'm just sitting in the waiting room talking to kale on text and he's freaking out but won't tell me why.

me: dude you have to tell me what's going on
🌿: no no no i can't what the Fucking hell!
me: kalvin. listen. i'm your best friend and you should be able to talk to me about anything and you are. so what the fuck is going on!?
🌿: okay okay... kenna's pregnant. we went to a fertility clinic a few weeks ago and she's been feeling sick and she took a test today and.. well we're having a baby!
me: woah bro. are you sure about this?
🌿: hell yes.
me: you're ready to be a father and shit?
🌿: yes. i've been doing some reading and stuff on it and kenna is the one i want forever.

now that got me thinking... do i want to adopt with justin? i mean i want to be with him forever... but do i want to raise kids with him?

me: shit i gotta go. justin's done with his session

i lock my phone and put it in my pocket. i stand up and walk over to justin.

"how do you feel baby?" i ask and hug him tight. he hugs back.

"um. better i guess." he laughs a bit.

i pull away and lock our fingers together, walking out with him.

sorry about all these short chapters. i've been really busy with school and volleyball. we have a game tomorrow haha. anyways love ya