the note (JAEGAN)

chapter 8

Beasty

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i walk into the room and go over to the bed. "hey bubba.." i whisper and sit down next to him.

"hey beasty.." he smiles weakly. he leans up and kisses me softly. i don't kiss back because i know he will regret it. he puts his hand on the back of my neck and doesn't let me pull away.

"j-justi-" i try to get him to stop but he pushes me back and get on my lap. goddammit justin. i roll my eyes. i put my hands on his waist and scoot him back a little while he's still on my lap. also. little side note. the party is still happening and my knuckles hurt like hell.

i push him off and get up. i go over to the door and lock it. i go back over to justin and sit down. "justin you need to go to sleep. seriously." i look him in the eyes even though i can't see them.

"i-i don't want to." he slurs. "i want yyyou, daddy."

why does he have to be like this? i have a girlfriend and he's my best friend. he groans and starts to straddle my lap again. he puts his hands in my hair. i take my bottom lip between my teeth and bite down slightly.

i put my hands on his waist and pull him a bit closer. got ive wanted this for so long. i mean i know we just had sex a few days ago but i don't remember it. he starts kissing over the hickeys i already have.

i tilt my head a little to give him more access. then i remember how i have foundation over the hickeys under my ear. well i mean he's kissing by the right ear. he starts pulling on my hair a little and damn. i just wanna take him on this bed right this very second.

i soon realize what i'm doing, just letting this happen. i push him off and stand up beside the bed. i sigh and sit down in the chair at the end of the bed. "daddy...why'd you make me stop? i know you liked it. i could feel you under me." he says sort of seductively. i close my eyes and take in a deep breath.

i go lay down on the bed and turn away from justin so my back is to him. shortly after i feel the bed move and justin's hand on my hip. i tense up. he moves his hand more forward near my area, he's just about to grab me when there's a knock at the door. i bolt up and run over to the door. i unlock it and open it slightly and see kenna.

"dadddyyyy come backkkk.." justin whines.

"lay down and go to sleep." i say firmly, not turning from kenna.

"uh...did he just call you daddy?" kenna looks at me. i look slightly behind her and see chloe sitting on jakes lap kissing him.

"oh hell no." i open the door completely and push past kenna. i walk over to them, sitting on the couch. "what the FUCK?" i yell loudly. she pulls away and looks at me with regret in her eyes.

"baby i- i'm so sorry! i uh.." she stops talking.

"fuck off chloe..it's over. i'm done..we're over. for good." i state with tears in my eyes and my voice cracking. chloe stands up and tries to grab my face but i push her hands off. "no..i c-can't.." i turn from her and walk back towards the room justin's in. the lights are on now and kenna is sitting next to justin. he has a glass of water that he's drinking.

"i need to take him home." i tell kenna.

"okay..take care of him ok?"

"always."

home

"come on jay.." i lift him out of the car and hold him in my arms. he groans and starts walking/falling. i hold him up and walk him towards the front door.

i unlock the door and open it. we walk in and i walk him over to the couch. i sit him down and sit next to him. he leans on my shoulder and sighs. "i'm sorry.." he whispers.