the note (JAEGAN)

chapter 22

Raegan

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i hear that and smirk. i get up from where i'm sitting and go upstairs. i definitely know his usual hiding spaces. first i go into the bathroom and check under the cabinets, then in the shower. he's not in here.

i go out and go into the hallway. i look into each hall closet, looking through the clothes. not there either. i go into our room and check under the bed, in the bathroom and in the closet. not there. what the fuck? he's not in any of his usual spots.

i finally walk back out and into the master bedroom. he never comes in here because he's sad about his parents but i know he'd never think i'd look there. but i'm just as smart as him. i walk over to the closet and open it. i immediately heat him squeak. i laugh and move the clothes, seeing him there. i grab him and pull him out.

i kiss him slowly, putting my hand on the back of his neck not letting him pull away. he kisses back and i finally pull away.

"hi baby." i say.

"hey daddy." he smirks.

i clench my teeth as i feel myself get hard. it's funny how just his words can turn me on so much and make me want him so badly.

i pick him up and he wraps his legs around me. i walk out of the bedroom and into our room. i close the door and lay him down on the bed. i start taking his clothes off.

"so i'm all in control, huh?" i ask, teasing.

"god yes." he says.

"good." i get his shirt off. i kiss his chest, going down leaving kisses.

i get to the top of his pants and i unbutton them. he looks down at me as he waits. i unzip them and slip them off. i take my clothes off as well and we're both in our boxers now.

i put my hands at the top of his boxers and look into his eyes. even after all this time i still want to make sure he's okay with this. he nods and i pull them down.

i do nOt want to write smut right now i'm very uncomfortable. so time skip lol

i lay on my back after pulling out of him. he sits up and looks at me. he smirks. i smirk back. he gets on my lap and straddles me. i put my hands on his hips and he wiggles. i sit up too and wrap my arms around him. he hugs me back and sighs.

"i love you baby." he tells me.

"i love you more." i say back.

"that's wrong."

"no." i laugh.

"whatever you say. i know i'm right." he says and gets off of me. i groan and get up too. i walk into the bathroom and turn the water on, adjusting the temperature. once i get it right i step in and start washing myself. i hear the shower curtain being opened and i turn my head to see justin behind me.

"what? can i not take a shower with my boyfriend?" he smirks.

"no you can." i smile. i grab the shampoo and put some in my hand. i give the bottle to justin and start massaging the soap into my hair. i wash it out and let justin step past me to wash his out.

i grab the conditioner and rub it into my hair. i hand it to jay and he washes his out first. then he lets me step past him and wash mine out. i grab the body wash and lather my body in it. i wash it off and let justin. i get out and grab a towel. i dry my body first, then my hair. i walk back into our bedroom and put some new boxers. i put some sleeping pants on and keep my shirt off. justin walks out and puts boxers and a hoodie on.

i walk over to him and sigh. he sighs back. he wraps his arms around my neck, forcing me to bend down. i hug him around his lower back and i hear him sniff a little. i pull away and look at him.

"what's wrong baby?" i ask with concern in my eyes.

"i-i just.. i miss my family .. and i-i even miss my mom." he cries.

woah...he hated his mom. she never supported him and always made it clear that he 'wasn't a real boy' which he is.

"i miss my family too.." i wipe his tears with my thumb.

he just wraps his arms around me and hugs me tight. i hug back and walk us over to the bed.

he pulls away and crawls onto the bed, laying in his spot. i lay next to him and open my arms. he cuddles up to my chest, wrapping his arms around my shirtless body.

i wrap my arms around him too and kiss his head. i turn the lamp off and close my eyes. i feel him lift his arm and wipe his face.

he stops crying after a while, just sniffing every once and a while. i slowly feel myself falling asleep.

Justin

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i wake up to raegan not being in the bed. i get up and walk into the hallway. i hear moaning from downstairs. i get confused and walk down. before i even make it to the last step and see a sight i never though i'd see again.. i feel my heart drop into my stomach as the tears immediately escape my eyes,  falling onto my cheeks.

i walk all the way down and try to speak. but all that comes out is little whimpers because i don't know what to say. then i finally find the courage to say something.

"get the fuck out of my house." i start crying harder. the girl gets up and laughs.

"shut up little tranny." (ew i hate myself for putting that in my story)

"fuck you." i slap her across the face. i walk over to raegan.

"get out." i yell.

"justin i can explain." he stands up.

"no get out." he tries to grab my hands. i jerk away from him.

"you think you can just touch me after what you just did?! you broke my fucking heart raegan. i hate you." i say. he walks out with the girl and gets into his car, leaving.

i walk upstairs and grab the gun my dad kept.

i walk with the gun into my room. i put the gun on my dresser and grab a pen and paper.

trigger warning

Dear whoever finds me first.. if you're one of my friends you should know, raegan broke me. he caused this. and i hate him. i love you and i hope you do well without me.

if you're raegan, fuck you.

             ~justin

i set the pen down and pick the gun up. i make sure it's loaded. it is. i put it to my head and put my finger on the trigger.

just before i pull it i feel myself being shaken.

i sit up and look around. i feel the wetness in my face. i see raegan. "you cheated on me get away from me!" i yell.

"no baby i didn't. that was a long time ago i'm sorry." he says. then i realize it was just a dream.

"oh my god." i say and wrap my arms around him.

"i love you so god damn much!" i yell.

"i love you too." he says.

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