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Sixth🌹

The weekend passed by so quick. Monday na ulit at ngayon magsisimula ang practice sa graduation march namin.

Archibald is still contacting me through Instagram, but I don't reply that much. I need that for myself. His effect on me is dangerous and I'm scared of where it'll end up.

Ang mga lalaking katulad niya ay hindi nababagay sa mga katulad ko. He's blithe, a tad secretive and too liberated, while I'm composed and futuristic. I am committed to my goals in life and I don't have time for pit-stops.

He was one of those guys almost every female would drool over. A well built body, a structured face, fair skin with his unignorable chestnut mid length taper and bushy eyebrows. His thin and somewhat rosy lips, that now have become my weakness-even if I hate to admit it-his defined nose, and of course I can never forget about his extremely captivating blue eyes.

Kapag may makwentuhan ako tungkol sa pag-iiwas ko sa mga alindog niya, alam kong lubos silang magtataka. Sino ba naman ang gustong umiwas sa ganong klaseng lalake, diba?

That's practically why I have no more reason to deny my attraction towards him, I have already made peace with that thought. Pero, kumbinsado rin ako na ang paglalandi niya sa'kin lang ang rason kung bakit na-attract ako in the first place.

I firmly believe na kung hindi lang siya nakealam sa gabing 'yun, na kung hindi lang siya bumalik sa couch namin matapos hanapin ang mga kaibigan niya, I wouldn't even think of him like what I'm doing right now.

Natatakot ako. I'm scared that if I embrace this feeling with open arms, something might stab me in the back. Delikado at masyadong kathang-isip ang lahat ng 'to.

It's safer for me to avoid him at all cost. It's the most rational solution to my problem and the best one that I trust.

I don't want to be the loser in this game I never even thought of playing. I want to play safe, protect myself from anything that might drag me away from my goals, as how Abby tried to put it.

It's just too risky.

I was about to head out when the notification bell on my phone pinged again.

Damn, I should practice setting my phone on silent mode.

I checked my phone, expecting that it was another message from Arch, but it was not.

Surprisingly, I felt a bit disappointed na hindi mensahe niya ang bumungad sa'kin.

What the hell? You're not a simp, Isla! Get a hold of yourself!

itsblair:

Flight's exactly at one, we'll see u soon.

Si Blair lang pala, isa sa mga pinsan ko sa side ni Mom.

Blair and I are super close kasi we're the only girl Demavies in our generation, and we have like, five other boy cousins. One is her brother, Blake, the other one is Vaughn, the eldest, and the siblings Xavier, Yael and Zenon.

islandh:

Have a safe trip. Love u.

"Manang, paki handa po ng mga kwarto nina Blair. Mamayang gabi na raw ang dating nila." Sa laki ba naman ng bahay na 'to hindi na nila kailangan pang mag book ng hotel kasi kasya naman kaming lahat dito.

"Iisang kwarto pa rin ba sina Zenon?" Would the siblings want to share a room again? I'm not sure, ang tagal na nung huli silang nag-stay dito.

"Siguro separate na po, manang?"

"Maghahanda nalang kami ng extra kung sakali man." She obviously heard the uncertainty of my voice. Mabuti na rin.