Stick by me (Complete)

I'm ready

Three weeks later
Perrie
It's coming up to mine and Jade's three year anniversary and my stupid mind is making me extremely paranoid. Me and Robin broke up after 3 years because she was sex deprived and cheated on me, what if Jade does the same? I just don't understand why I feel like this since I know Jade loves me but at the same time, I thought Robin loved me. Surely she wouldn't cheat on me when we have 5 kids? Ugh I just don't know. I've been up since 4am this morning, it's now 7am, since Charlie was upset because he had an accident and after that I just couldn't get to sleep. I invited Charlie into our bed so he was cuddling up to my leg sleeping in his pull-up. Jade was at the other side of the bed sleeping peacefully. I reached my hand over and moved some hair from her face. My beautiful girlfriend, but for how much longer?

I caressed her cheek and sighed out. I heard a content groan escape her perfect lips. How do I deserve such a flawless girl in my life? After another minute of me caressing Jades cheek her eyelids flickered open revealing her gorgeous caramel orbs. "Good morning baby." She smiled and sat up slightly and yawned. "Morning babe." I replied. "Why is he here?" She asked cuddling Charlie slightly. "He wet the bed last night, I put him in a pull up and got him in our bed." I sighed. "What's up baby?" She asked me. "There is nothing wrong, I'm just tired." I lied. She nodded, I knew she wasn't convinced but I hoped she wouldn't question me. "I'll go and check on the others." She smiled and kissed my lips gently. "Okay." I sighed and opened my eyes moments after our lips disconnected, she hadn't moved her face so we were staring into each other's eyes. "I love you, never forget that." She smiled and left the room.

I smiled. Maybe she does love me. But Robin said that. Ugh! I groaned, ran my hands through my hair. "Why is life so confusing Char?" I asked and played with his hair. I wanted to get up but I didn't want to move him, he looked so peaceful. I'll just stay in bed.

10 hours later.
It was bath time for the kids, through out the day I thought about this situation with Jade. I think I'm ready to show her how much I really love her. I think I am. I want to be, I don't want her to leave me because I'm too much of a wuss to have sex with my girlfriend. But I don't know. "Pezza, bath time." Jade smiled and ran her hands through my hair. She was stood behind the sofa so she bent down and hugged me from the back. "Are you sure you're okay?" She asked and kissed under my ear. I nodded and turned my head so she could kiss my lips. "Ewww mamas!" I heard Luna sequel. I laughed. "Pez, seriously. Are you alright?" She asked. "I think I'm ready Jade." I smiled. "Ready for what?" She asked confused. "What do you think?" I asked. She looked at me and nodded quickly. "You want sex?" She asked shocked. I shrugged. "I'll see you tonight sweetheart." She smirked and kissed me then walked to the bathroom with Charlie by her feet and Ava on her hip.

Jade
I was honestly so shocked. Perrie was actually ready for sex, or was she? I don't know, but we'll see tonight. After I started running the bath for Charlie and Ava she walked in. "What's up, shouldn't you being sorting Luna and Lyla out?" I asked. "Yeah, just getting the baby bath soap." She smiled and reached for it. "Okay baby." I smiled she walked out. I have obviously thinking about having sex with her for the last three years but I completely respect her decision in not wanting it. Bless her, she has been through so much involving sex, it pains me to think how broken she still is but maybe she is coming away from it. I don't know. I'm confused in a way. I think I'll just take it slow with her tonight, and be gentle.

3 hours later
All the kids were in bed, we put Charlie in a pull up just in case he wet the bed again. I walked into the bedroom to see Perrie led on the bed staring at the ceiling. I went to lie down next to her. "Baby?" I asked, she turned over so she looking at me directly. "Are you sure you're ready?" I asked her, she nodded and cuddled into me. "I'll take it slow, yeah?" I asked and kissed her. She nodded. "Okay baby, tell me of you feel uncomfortable or upset okay.." I asked she nodded.
"Can I take this off?" I asked and looked at her top, we had seen each other naked before but I just wanted to ask permission so she didn't feel at all violated. She nodded slowly and raised her arms. "Okay." I raised it above her head and threw it to the floor, she wasn't wearing a bra. "Can you lie down?" I asked she nodded and did so. "I'm going to straddle you baby." I smiled she nodded. I got on top of her and bent down to her face. "You sure?" I asked one last time, she nodded again and smiled then kissed my lips. I moved my lips and traveled slowly down her neck. I moved my hands up and down her thighs, I didn't want to go too far and take her pants off just yet. I got down to her collar bone and looked back up at her, I saw tears in her eyes. I moved and kissed her lips. "You still want me to continue?" I asked gently. She sighed but nodded. "Baby, not if your not comfortable." I sat up. "No, carry on, it's nice." She whispered but her voice broke at the end. "Okay sweetheart." I smirked and kissed her head.