a/n: listen to a drop in the ocean pls. Sorry I keep changing the name and shit it must be pretty fuckin confusing but I just thought cuz Ruby may or may not be gone I should change it idk sorry
July
Logically, the first thing you do after bringing your gay band member that's totally in love with you back to your band, is introduce him to your new girlfriend am I right?
-Calum
She's nice, really nice and she's such a great person. I'm happy for him, I mean I sure I am somewhere deep down inside. They seem like they're really mean for each other and like I said before, I'm sure I'm happy for them.
At least he doesn't seem so tied down like he was with Ruby, so we can still hang out and shit without her trying to ruin my life. It's nice, being able to be with the old Michael I grew up with. He's happy.
I just wish I could be that drop in the ocean, the one thing that causes ripples in his life, that causes him to think twice about his decisions, but I can't help but think that Maya is that drop. She's the one that he loves, not me.
Maybe Im the change in the weather. Im the dramatic change that causes people to straight up hate me 'cause Im the snow storm that came when they wore shorts.
I can be the snow storm that hits Michael so he can see how wrong he is for falling for the drop when he finally notices the true beauty of the storm overpowers the elegance of the single drop.
The only thing is that I cannot control when the storm hits. I don't know when he'll realize that Im the one for him.
**
I can easily say I don't hate Maya. We've actually become pretty close and she can be classified as a friend. We've definitely had our share of laughs in the passed couple of days and she's helped me chose from the songs management had sent for me to chose from when I open for 5sos. So far we have;
A Thousand Years- Christina Perri
My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark (Light 'Em Up) (Acoustic) - Fall Out Boy
Story Of My Life- One Direction
and Lego House- Ed Sheeran
There was much debate over some of these songs, but these are the ones we ended with I guess. It's offically 7:27 and I go on in three minutes. I put in my ear piece, look in the mirror, grab my guitar and head on stage.
"Good evening, Sydney!" I shout in the microphone and everyone goes mad. Half of them probably don't even know that I was opening for 5sauce because it was so sudden. I stand in front of my microphone and begin speaking. "Well hello everyone. None of these songs that I am about to sing are mine, I'm just putting my own twist on them so yeah, here we go. and the music for A Thousand Years begins to play.
**
I watch as my old band performs from the side of the stage with a smile on my face. They sound great, better even, without me. But I can see the dirty looks Ryan gives and gets from the other members, and it's completely obvious that he's not even playing his bass, just strumming the strings, sort of.
I make my way back stage before they finish and sit on the couch feeling my stomach become uneasy again. Shit, I knew I shouldn't have eaten earlier. Ever since I had gotten food poisoning earlier, I haven't held down food that well. I don't tell anyone though, I'm fine and it's nothing I can't handle myself. Once my stomach has had enough, I stumble to my feet and brush my teeth and drink a glass of water.
When the concert is over, we head back to the bus and Maya heads home since she can't tour with us. I was walking to my own seperate bus when I'm suddenly slammed against the side.
"What the fuck?" I groan, looking at my attacker. "Michael, what's your deal?" I snap, shoving him off of me and glaring at him.
"You know what my deal is." he snarls at me angrily. When all I do is give him a confused look, he continues. "You're trying to steal her from me!" he shouts, his voice cracking a little.
"Who, Maya?!" what the fuck, I'm pretty sure the whole world knows I'm gay. "Dude, I don't even like girls. In case you haven't noticed I'm gay. G-A-Y Gayyyyyyy" I tell him as his face heats up.
"Shit, man I'm sorry." he says, obviously really embarrassed.
"It's okay," I laugh a little and turn to walk on my bus.
"Wait." he says and I stop and turn to face him. "Can I- uhm- can-"
"You wanna come in and cuddle with me, Mikey?" I ask, avoiding the awkward situation. He smiles and follows me into my bus.
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a/n: HI GUYS HI
HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY GO AMERICA DEDICATION GOES TO CALUMSBUTT I LOVE TOUR USER BTW NEXT
YOU SHOULD PM ME UR SNAPCHATS AND THEN WE CAN UGLY SNAPCHAT AND SHIT AND THEN THE BEST UGLY SNAPCHAT WILL GET THE DEDICATION YAY
GO AMERICA
I met Jessica Mendoza and im squealinG
I got blood on my favorite jumper im sad and yeah this is the last time I'm changing the name btw.
