there's still a little bit of michael's shit on my hope and it smells, someone clean it off for me?
-calum
Michael's Pov (hehehe)
So I am sitting, all alone in my bunk. Maya had forgiven me, but she had to go home since we are going out of country and Calum is in his own bus. He's probably still upset that I said those things to him. Whatever, he'll get over it.
It's not like he's a suicidal boy that tried to kill himself once, except that's exaxtly what he is. My thoughts suddenly scramble and I search for my mobile and dial him.
It rings, and rings, and rings until finally there's an answer.
"Hello?" he says, his throat is raspy and squeaky all at once letting me know he's been crying.
"Hey, Calum.." I begin awkwardly, not thinking he'd pick up.
"What do you want Michael?" he mumbles slowly after clearing his throat.
"I just wanted to see if you were okay." I hear him huff, and then there's movement in the background before it goes quiet and he talks.
"I think you were just checking to see if I didn't kill myself." he spits and I gulp slowly.
"Calum that's not tru-"
"Bullshit Michael!" he shouts, "You don't want me to kill myself because it'll be all your fault and you couldn't live with people blaming you." he hissed.
"Calum, I-"
"Don't even try to deny it, Michael. You know it's true, and you know what? I don't regret the kiss. You don't know how long I've waited to kiss you like that."
"I'm sorry." I finally croak in, and I hear him bitterly laugh and his voice goes sad again.
"No, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I ruin all of your relationships, but you know it's not my fault that I fell in love with you before any of them." and the line goes dead. I stand from my bunk and pace at the back of the bus, causing a soft squeak with every step.
"Michael, would you fucking quit that?" someone says causing my head to snap up.
"Sorry, Ash." I say and he turns to go back to his bunk, but I hear him sigh and come back towards me.
"What's wrong, Mikey." He says, not really asking, just saying it.
"Calum." is all I say. "Calum ruining my relationships, Calum being suicidal, just Calum. Calum, Calum, Calum. What's wrong with him?" I say angrily and I see Ashton's eyebrow twitch in the slightest bit.
"Nothing is wrong with him, Michael." shit, he's getting pissed. "He's in love with you and the whole world seems to know except you." he murmurs and I can tell he's trying to stay calm.
"No he's not. He's such an attention seeker." I mumble and that seemed to be the last straw for Ashton. He was fuming and I took a hesitant step back, but he's on me like a fangirl on One Direction.
"I don't know what the hell your problem is, but that attention seeker used to be your best friend." he snaps. "You used to do everything together, and I don't know what the fuck happened, but you need to fix it." he growls and turns to walk off.
"What happened was that he fell in love with me!" I yell after him and his whole body goes rigid. He turns around quickly and before I know what's happening, my cheek is throbbing and I'm on the ground.
"Falling in love with someone should never change a friendship for the worst." he snaps, obviously still raging as he jumps on me. He throws a few more punches at my throbbing face, causing me to let out several noises to let him know I'm in pain. "I don't know how he fell in love with you." he spits, landing another punch on my nose and blood ooses out.
"He deserves so much better." I'm breathing heavily by the time he finishes talking, and then his weight disappears causing me to look up. Ryan and Luke were holding him back, pulling him to the other end of the bus so I try and scramble to my feet. My whole face is throbbing as I stumble to my bunk and just lay there for a while, listening to them calm Ashton down and Ashton telling them what happened for him to do that.
My curtain shoots open and tissue is handed to me before it closes again. I sigh gratefully and press the tissue to my nose and take out my mobile once again. I scroll through my contacts, my finger hovering over Calum's number for the longest time. Finally, I click on it, go through my settings and hit delete.
**
It's Ashton's birthday and we have a day off to party or do whatever. I get up and look in the bathroom mirror, nothing too bad is showing up, just some bruises and stuff but they arent that bad. Tip to all you out there, don't get in a fight with the drummer (who tends to be the muscliest in the band) cause you will lose.
We're stopped for a while and I decide to go apologize to Calum. I hop off of the steps and walk a couple feet to Calum's. I knock on the door and hear rustling on the inside before the door is open.
"Hey Calu-"
"Oh my god what happened?" he says, noting the slight bruising on my face.
"Nothing I-" but he pulls mype into his bus before I say another word.
"Sit." he instructs, pointing to a chair facing the table. I do as he says and he digs through his cabinet before pulling out a first aid kit and retrieving some ice packs from the freezer.
He begins treating my wounds and everything, giving me ice packs and pain killers.
"Calum, I'm sorry." I say and he nods.
"I know. It's okay." he mumbles, his eyes focused on me.
"How can you forgive me so easily? I was a total dick to you." he chuckles and nods.
"You were, but it's hard to stay mad at you." he mumbles. "and it sucks, because you always find away to make me feel like shit." he says, dabbing a small cut near my eye with a small towel.
"Why?" I ask, feeling like a small unexperienced child.
"When you fall in love with someone it's like you can never stay mad at them, or feel any other emotion except love." he pauses for a second, looking me in the eye and lowering his hand slowly. "I suggest you never do it." he whispers, both of us barely noticing how close our faces are together. We stare into each other's eyes for the longest time, me memorizing everything about the color of his irises all over again. He clears his throat and looks away, breaking me from my trance as he finishes cleaning me up.
It's weird, this feeling in the pit of my stomach of warmth and safety. It's a feeling I've never felt before and as I look up at Calum it becomes stronger and stronger, I think I'm just hungry.
a/n: helllloooooo
omg its almost Ashton's birthday stop
THIS IS ALMOST OVER IM SO SAD there'll probably be like 2-3 more updates yeah
