When I wake up I find beautiful green eyes staring down at me. I try to sit up but she doesnt let me. Lauren pushes me back down with a kiss. Its rough and raw. She tastes amazing. I feel like I havnt expierinced it. It seems as if Im taken to a whole new world of beauty and love and passion.
Thats when I realise what happened. I sit up so fast that Lauren is thrown off the couch. She groans as she rubs her head.
"Good morning to you too." She mumbles.
"Good morning!? Thats all you have to say!?" I shout immediatly. "What the hell was that last night!" It was more of a deamand rather than a question.
Lauren just shrugs. "I was learning how to live. Something you clearly need to learn." She mumbles. "Common D," She says pulling me onto the floor ontop of her. She begins to kiss and nip at my neck.
"You took away my emotions. Where did you learn that?" My voice is shallow and breathy. I try to snap myself out of it. "Lauren common! Your my sister!"
"Sisters." She says thoughtfully. "Your blood is my blood. We belong to eachother." She whispers softly. I feel her bite down on my neck hard. I give a yelp. More because of surprise then pain. "I like that." She says into my skin.
"Stop." I say getting off of her. "Whats gotten into you lately?"
Laurens eyes darken. "Whats gotten into me!? I love you Dinah! It hurts so badly. Did you ever think that maybe you were wrong? That I did fall for you? There was always something pulling me into you. And i loved the feeling you gave my heart. You made me feel alive."
Her eyes are pleading and angry. Two things i never knew you could be at once. She moves closer and takes my waiste.
"It hurts so badly. I know what you are. I know what your needs are. I just need you to tell me! Give me a reason Dinah! Dont just leave and break my heart. You shouldve told me you were afraid of hurting me!"
That makes me soften. I wrap my arms around her back and squeeze her tight. She snuggles into my hair and I sigh. "Im sorry. I guess I just thought you wouldnt understand."
Lauren smiles. "Thats why I did what i did."
I laugh but then it fades. "It still cant happen Lauren. And you know it. We both know it. We are sisters. I cant love a sister like that."
Her eyes darken and they look like they are a dark storm blue. "I guess you just dont love me enough."
My blood runs cold at her words. I pull her close. "I do love you. Cant you see why Im doing this? Im trying so hard. I want you to be able to move on Laur. I want you to be free. If your in love with someone you cant have it will kill you."
She raises an eyebrow. "It would be a privilage, Dinah, to have my heart broken by you."
I hug her tightly. "Your amazing. You know that?"
She gives me one of her dazzeling smiles. She stands on her toes and kisses me. "Give me one day. Give me one day of love and beauty and to be held by you. Give me one day and make me feel alive. I never got a day. I want one day to be able to love and kiss you. After that I promise I'll try."
Lauren pouts and I lean down and kiss her softly. She smiles against the kiss and wraps her arms around my neck.
"Your so beautiful Dinah Jane. Your amazing and lovely and loving you is the greatest pleasure I could ever have. Whether it be for a day, a year."
She snuggles against my chest and I feel my heat racing. I have one day with her. And I plan to make every second worth it. My heart craves her and ever since I met her I have wanted to hold her and kiss her and protect her. I crave to love her. And I have one day to do it."
"One day." I tell her.
"One day." She agrees.
"It hurt me too Laur. I fell for you hard. And restraining myself has been the worst. All the time i find myself dreaming or thinking about your lips your eyes. Snuggling with you under the stars. I want an infinity."
"I can give it to you if you just let me. You cant deny yourself things forever and one day youd look back and youd regret it and itd be too late. Do this for me. Do this for yourself. You deserve a day after all youve been through."
"Do you know what my fake parents were like?"
She shakes her head.
"My mom loved me a lot. She took me to the zoo. She loved the monkeys. I liked the lions." I smile at the memory. "When we get home she goes to the kitchen counter and begins to shake. She falls to the floor and screams and convulses. I watch her while I scream and cry. And then she just stopped moving. Dad came home and found me in tears. He asked why I didnt call and i asked if she was dead. He slapped me and said of corse she was. I shouldve done something Laur." I whisper.
She holds me tight and kisses me again. "One day Dinah. We are going to forget all the flaws in the world and all the regrets weve had or is to come. And Im going to love you like I have always wanted. And you can love me like your heart wishes. Okay?"
I kiss her again. "Okay."
