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alfie

                        ALFIE

"What the fuck was that!? Where have you been!?" I shouted as soon as I heard the door click open and Marcus walked into the room.

He sighed heavily before taking his jacket off and throwing it on the chair beside him. He slumped down onto the sofa as I stared at him in disbelief.

"Seriously?! You're going to ignore me?" I shouted. I was angry, I wasn't going to let him just pretend that nothing happened there.

"No, but you're pissed off. You won't listen to me. I'll speak about it after you're not shouting and annoyed." He said calmly after looking at me.

"Marcus! Tell me what the fuck is going on!" I shouted again, I wasn't going to leave him alone until he told me. I liked Zoe and from the brief sentence I got from her when she was nearly in tears, they didn't have a good history and then Marcus left to go after her and was gone for longer than I wanted him to have been.

Marcus stood up and walked towards me, I couldn't tell how he was feeling by the look on his face. 

"Alfie. Leave it. For just now anyway. I will tell you after." Marcus said strongly. Like he was annoyed but didn't want to show it.

I turned around and stormed out of the flat. I slammed the door like a child and went down the stairs as fast as my legs would take me without falling flat on my face. I planned on going straight to Zoe's and asking her what the hell was going on. I needed to know now.

I heard footsteps running up behind me then felt a hand on my shoulder. When I was along the street. I shook the hand off, knowing it was probably Marcus.

"Alfie?"

I recognised the small feminine voice as soon as the words left their mouth. I instantly turned around and all the anger that was inside of me vanished when I saw her face.

"Zoe. I'm sorry. Are you o-"

"Alfie, I'm fine. What's wrong? Where are you going?"

"I, uh, em, to find you." I said quietly. I had so many emotions building up inside of me I could have burst into tears right there.

"Alfie. I was on my way back to explain things to you. It wasn't fair to leave you not knowing what was happening, from my point of view anyway. I don't know what Marcus said to you or anything but-"

At the mention of Marcus' name all the anger I felt before surfaced and overwhelmed me.

"Nothing! Fuck! He won't say anything!" I turned around and punched the street light that was next to me. I felt the instant pain shoot through my hand but I didn't care. I didn't realise I was crying until I sniffed my nose, I didn't care about that either. I was so confused and angry I knew I had to let out my emotions one way. I had always been an over emotional person and took things way past the point that they could have been stopped at.

"Alfie. Calm down." Zoe took my hand in hers and squeezed it. I snatched my hand away from hers in pain. I looked down at my hand and I could already see the bruises starting to appear.  "I'm sorry, I thought it was the other hand." She took the sore one back in hers and examined it carefully with her beautiful blue glistening eyes. 

The rain continued to pour down but it wasn't as heavy as before. Zoe met my gaze and I took my hand from hers. Breaking the contact between us.

"What happened Zoe? Please. I need to know." I sniffled, pleadingly.

She looked away from me, I could tell she was apprehensive. I needed to know, my mind was imagining the worst. All the things that Marcus could have done to upset her. The warm salty tears continued to fall from my eyes and I cursed to myself in my mind to stop. That I was making myself too open to this girl I had just met less than one day ago.

I turned away from her and wiped the tears off of my face. Stop it Alfie, stop it. Not again. Stop. You're better than this. Stop fucking crying. I could have slapped myself at this point. Or punched the stupid street light again. But I didn't. I turned around and looked at Zoe. I decided to act the opposite way that I felt practically. I looked down and took Zoe's hand in mine. I walked back towards my flat which is less than a minute away. I didn't get to storm far before she caught up with me.

I looked down at Zoe who quickly looked away. She must have been looking at me before. I laughed silently to myself. In that moment I only felt happy. This girl had such an affect on me already after such a small amount of time. What had happened to me? I was always such a closed off person. I had never been open or emotional in front of other people. Only to myself. But Zoe was different somehow. I didn't even know how for now but in that moment I didn't want to know. I just wanted to be there, with her, and forget about what was about to happen. What I was about to learn about Marcus and Zoe.