The Devils Angel

Chapter 20

Carmen's POV

After locking my door on Damon, I sat with my back against it. I had never felt so much heartbreak, I couldn't even cry, I could hardly even catch my breath. It was like I had been shattered into a million unfixable pieces. Seeing him beat Cole like that, his face contorted like a true demon, I knew it was a mistake falling for him so hard. The tears didn't start until he stopped knocking on my door and I heard him sobbing. It had taken every bit of strength to walk away from him while he begged me to forgive him. He had said he had changed, but he never would. Why did I have to keep reminding myself that he was a demon, and not just any demon. He was the king, the worst of them all.
It wasn't even just him that had betrayed me, my blood could make them human. Cole had tried to bite me before. I had seen his face when Damon had told me. He had known all along. If I hadn't of said I loved him, he would have bitten me. I know he loves me, but I don't know if I can trust him.

"Just stay away from me!" Damon's voice made me jump, he had been quiet for a while, I had heard them talking but his shout stopped my tears. Was he talking to me? No probably not. After that it went completely quiet. I slowly got up and unlocked the door. I needed answers and Caspar probably had them.
Opening the door, I saw Tom, Cole and Caspar all turn towards me. I could not even look at Cole right now.
"Caspar can I talk to you please?" He nodded, and I moved aside so he could come in. After he had walked in I went to shut the door before Cole's hand reached out and stopped me.
"Please Carmen. Please talk to me. I need you to understand." I looked into his eyes and saw they were sincere but right now that did not matter. I needed time.
"I'm sorry, but please just leave me alone for a bit. I just need some space." Then I shut the door, but not before seeing the hurt in his eyes.
"I am sorry all this has happened to you Carmen. I should have returned sooner. If I had known what he was up to I would never have let this happen. He always was a selfish child, we may be demons but that does not mean we need to be evil. I will answer any questions you have." He never broke eye contact with me and I appreciated that. His eyes had the qualities of both a demon and a human, this for some reason made me trust him more than just seeing the red and black that I had become used to.
I gestured for him to sit on the long seat at the end of my bed and sat next to him.
"I need to understand what I am. Start with what you know." He was silent for a minute, obviously thinking.
"I do not know a lot about your kind. I went above to learn about what I was and along the way I have learnt very little about Nephilim that come from fallen angels. It is very rare. Nephilim that come from a Demon and a human, like myself, are more human at birth, then when I turned 18 I became more Demon. I stopped aging, I was stronger, I had powers like Damon and Amber. But unlike them I had human qualities, I can control my temper a lot better, being in the human world does not weaken me. But weirdly I can persuade people to do things, even if they do not want to do it. Almost like a type of compulsion. To begin with it was something I did accidently, but I have that under control now." He looked down almost ashamed at something he could not control.
"Damon seemed to think I will stop ageing on my birthday too. The last week I have already noticed changes in myself, when I'm happy I start to glow and float as if I could fly, my tears burn a demon, but not as much as a real angel could, according to Cole. I noticed earlier that I can see and hear further than Cole could. I mean other than that I haven't noticed anything else. Oh, other than my eyes seem to switch from an angel to a demon depending on my mood." He looked as if deep in thought, I could see the confusion on his face.
"It is strange...I mean obviously I became more demon due to my mother, and a Nephilim from an angel would become more like an angel...but I always assumed that one from a fallen angel would be a mix of both. Yet, a fallen angel is not a demon, not really. They fell from above but never came below. I will have to do a lot more research. You truly are an anomaly Carmen."
"I am a freak..." He caught my chin and made me look directly into his eyes.
"No Carmen, you are special. I will do everything I can to help you." I could see my tears were stinging his hand that held my chin, but he did not even flinch. It didn't look as bad as Cole or Damon's had.
"Why can't I go home?"
"Because he is selfish. After Amber took you upstairs and you were noticed, he has made it so no one can jump. I was able to come back down before he did this. I am currently working on reversing it, people down here are asking questions and if they find out about you it will be too dangerous for you." I was shocked that he had done this, but also not entirely surprised.
"Okay but you said that because he brought me down here I could now not see my father..."
"Before, when it appeared you were turning into an angel, Sam would have been able to come down to earth to help you through the transition. But he cannot enter hell unless he has a job to do...and well now you have shown that you are also part demon...they will never let him help you. But I will, I won't let you go through this alone. Neither will Cole and Tom. I have already told them to start looking for answers." This was all so confusing...
"But wouldn't I have eventually shown those signs if I was upstairs?"
"Maybe, but it is only a few days till your birthday and he would have been with you by now, being down here means that he couldn't be." I didn't want to cry anymore, I was sick of crying. But with every word he said I felt more tears fall from eyes. I looked down my t-shirt and saw it was stained pink...my tears seemed to now be more demon than angel, yet they had still stung Caspar's hand. As much as he said I wasn't, I really was a weird hybrid freak. "Carmen, it will be okay. I will help you and when we can, and you have changed, I will take you home if that is what you want." I nodded. I was too dangerous and unpredictable to be around people right now. If Caspar could compel people, who knew what I could do.

"Where is Tom and Cole are looking for answers? Can I help? I feel useless just sitting here." He smiled at me as if expecting me to ask a question like that.
"If you are ready we can leave right now."
"Let me just change my shirt, it's kind of soaked." I saw him laugh slightly, standing he went to wait outside the door.
I splashed some water on my face to try and get rid of my puffy eyes and changed into a different t-shirt. I almost started crying again when I realised that everything I was wearing was given to me by Damon, I had the biggest urge just to destroy it all out of spite, instead I took a deep breath and walked out of the room to start trying to figure out what the hell was happening to me.