A Love For Keeps

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I slammed the door of the car after getting off it. I strode furiously inside our home, ignoring the looks of surprise from the cleaning helpers and even our housekeeper.

But before I can race up the stairs to get to my room, I was stopped by my mother's loud shout of my name.

"Won't you stop? Feng Jian Yu!" Her screeching angry tone made me turn around.

"Why?" I gave her back her angry glares. "Is there anything more we have to talk about? Haven't we made our points clear already? You don't approve of Qing and his family. But I will not leave him. Haven't we said enough...?"

We even argued in the car. My mother being adamant that I follow Grampy's order to never meet Qing again.

I said no. I will meet Qing. Because I want to see him.

Now...we are at our mansion and my mother still won't stop pestering me about this.

"Feng Jian Yu! You are talking to your mother!" My Baba joined us at the foot of the stairs. "Have some respect!"

"And I did, Baba! For twenty five long years. All I did is respect all of you and follow all your orders. Isn't it about time that what I want happens?" I gave them both a pleading stare. "Please, let me live my life the way I want it."

"How? By being with that man? The grandson of our former servants?" Grampy shook his head as he stood next to my father. Now, it's three against one. Typical. "I will have none of it, Feng Jian Yu. It's bad enough that you want to be with another man, I will not have you mix your life with mongrels like that grandson of that despicable man."

I close my eyes. I cannot believe that my life is in this stage right now. When did it became a Shakespearian play? This is not Romeo and Juliet for fuck's sake.

"But I love him." I declared bravely. As dramatic as that line may be. "And I want to be with him."

"Out of the question." My mother shook her head. "You are not even gay..."

"Yes, I am not." I agreed with her. "Because if I am gay, I will date a girl. Because I am a girl..."

"You are not!" My mother shouted. Utter shock on her face.

"I am!" I shouted back at her that surprised the three of them. My eyes suddenly swam with tears. "Stop. Stop making me lie to myself. You knew. You all knew. I have told you. Yet you won't listen to me..."

Seeing the tears on my eyes softens my mother's face. "Jian Yu ah...son..." she tried reaching for me but I evaded her touch.

"Am I really your son? Then why treat me like this? Why?" I asked them. "Why push me to lie to myself, deny myself happiness? Why? I have told you. I am a girl. Inside. Grammy knows..."

"Stop!" Grampy pointed a trembling finger at me. "You stop bringing your Grammy in this ridiculous idea of you being a girl. You are a boy. A man. And you will not see that Wang again..."

"You cannot stop me," I told him. Meeting my Grampy's eyes, I told him in a clear tone. "I love him. He makes me happy. I don't care if you don't like his family and what beef you have with his grandfather. I love him..."

"No!" My mother shook her head again. "You will not meet that boy again. Jian Yu, listen to me. I am your mother. You have to listen to me..."

"And when will you listen to me?" I asked her. "When will it be your turn to listen to me?"

"When you started thinking clearly again." My mother replied fiercely. "When you stop all this insane talk about being with another man. I won't have a gay son..."