Guilt // C.H.

Chapter 19: Calum [Ash bday edition]

(Calum's POV)

Luke, Michael and I were just sneaking into Ashton's room.

"Wake up!" Michael yelled.

"Mike!" Luke whisper-shouted. "Behave."

"Sorry, but the cake looks too delicious, I can't wait anymore." He said.

"Ash... wake up." I smiled.

"What? Oh guys..." He smiled sitting on the edge of his bed.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" Luke and I shouted, noticing a voice was missing. Michael's voice.

He was right behind us, eating the cake we brought for Ashton.

"Michael!" Luke groaned.

"Happy birthday..." He smiled with his mouth full of cake.

-

"Where are you going?" Luke asked as I stood up from the table.

"Visit Amber. I'll be right back. You finish the cake meanwhile." I said.

And taking a plate with a piece of cake I left the house.

-

"Aye, Amber." I said when she opened the door.

"Cal." She smiled.

"Stole some cake for you." I smiled back giving her the plate.

"Awh, thanks. Please, come in." She said.

"So, listen, we have an acoustic gig tonight and it's Ash's birthday so I won't be able to go to Hannah's with you." I shrugged.

"It's fine. I'm not going either. She's already in the rehab program and I'm not feeling like fighting for a visit with her doctors." She said looking for a fork.

We split the piece of cake.

"So, uhm, Calum..." Amber whispered.

"Yeah?"

"I-I don't really know how to ask but what's going on between us?" She gulped.

I knew what she meant but I didn't know what to answer.

"You know, after all what happened yesterday and..." She said not finishing her sentence like she wasn't even sure she wanted to know.

I've been thinking about that all night. And I realized I kind of liked Amber. Maybe more than Hannah. I'm so confused. I like Hannah but at the same time I don't get what's going on with her which brings a big dislike.

"Listen, Cal. I love you. But if you don't feel the same, I don't want to ruin our friendship." She spoke again.

This was it. I had to make my decision.

I still haven't said a thing so Amber's facial expression showed she was losing hope.

She stood up and took the plate and the fork directing herself to the dishwasher.

"Wait!" I stood up too and quickly pushed her against the kitchen wall, kissing her softly.

"C-Cal..." She said while we were kissing and I just grabbed her waist, making her drop the plate and the fork.

She slowly put her arms around my neck and smiled.

It takes a bit to describe but it all happened in a few seconds.

"I-I broke your plate." She said after a few moments and started collecting the broken pieces, while I stood in front of her still not believing what I just did.

"What kind of answer was that?" Amber chuckled.

"I'm bad with words." I smirked.

Then my phone rang.

"Sorry." I said and answered.

"Hey Calum, hurry please. We have a rehearsal soon, remember?"

"Right. I'm on my way."

"Okay. Bye."

"Bye." I said and turned to Amber again. "I guess I have to go now."

"Go, don't make them wait." She smiled. "And don't tell them 'bout the plate..."

I kinda knew I made a right decision.

"I will text you later." I winked leaving the house.

-

"Calum. Calum. Cal? CAL!" Ashton tried to get my attention.

We were sitting in a pizzeria waiting for the waiter and everyone was hungry but I stopped paying attention five minutes after we were here.

"Calum?" Luke laughed waving in front of my face.

"Oh, yeah?" I shook my head.

"What's going on, Calum?" Ashton asked.

"Nothing." I coughed.

"There's something. Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me." Michael repeated.

"You're never so careless and happy at the same time!" Ashton noticed.

I smiled and Luke got me.

"I know that smile, dude."

"Tell us, Luke."

"He's in love."

"What?! No way!"

"But Hannah's in hospital, he can't..."

"No no no. Wait..."

"Amber? Noo!"

"Oh my god, I knew it!"

I looked at them. "I'm still here! And I can hear you!"

"That's right. You're here. So you will tell us." Ashton turned to me.

"Yeah you bet." I said.

"It's my birthday wish, if you're here to crash kids' dreams then go ahead and don't tell us." Ash pouted and we started laughing like idiots.

"Fine." I rolled my eyes. "It's not a big deal... as things with Hannah messed up, I just realized I like Amber. That's all."

"Have you kissed?" Luke asked.

I didn't want to answer but Michael said "Twice."

"What? How the hell did you know?" I asked.

"Whoa really? Twice? I just blurted it out, I didn't know that. Whoa kids. Simmer down." Michael laughed.

I covered my face with my hands. "Why do I even hang out with you?"

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updating earlier bc Ash's birthday :)

HAPPY B-DAY ASH!

now back to the chapter...

its a bit different than the others and Cal and Amber are together and I basically killed myself writing this.

Xx I'm dedicating this chapter to ma frand Monika aka the only person who's reading the fanfic xX