Guilt // C.H.

Chapter 20: Hannah

(Hannah's POV)

"Miss Scott!" a nurse knocked on my door.

It was morning. Another day. Another day of counceling.

But it was Monday. Not another usual Monday. It was the beggining of the fourth and last week of rehab.

Finally.

Just a week and I'm out.

"Miss Scott!" the knock repeated.

"I'm coming!" I yelled.

I was half an hour awake before the nurse came, so I just stood up from my bed and left the room with the nurse who was waiting in front of the door.

I directed myself to the room 61A where was the counceling.

I sat where I always do, noticing there was more people today.

Right. Visits are approved from today.

"Hey did anybody come from your family?" Becky, a girl who sits near me, asked.

I had a quick flashback, remembering my parents, Amber and Calum, and when I told them to don't bother to visit.

I felt so stupid. Why did I tell them that? They probably moved on and forgot me.

"Hannah?" Becky asked.

"Oh." I shook my head. "I don't know, maybe someone'll be here."

The room was full of happy people hugging each other.

"Hanns?" Someone pat me on the back.

"Ambs? You came!" I hugged her tightly.

"Of course I came." She smiled.

Calum stood behind her giving a small wave.

"You can't imagine how happy I am." I smiled.

-

Becky was finishing with her talk and I knew it's my turn after her.

"Hannah Scott, you're next." The psychologist pointed at me and I stood up.

We always had this paper with five questions so I started reading and answering.

"Are you aware why are you here? Yes, I think so. I am here because with a few problems crawling on my back I lost the control on myself." I said while the doctor nodded lightly. "Proceed."

"Do you think you're ready for leaving this rehabilitation program? Honestly, yes. It helped me, but I also have to admit I miss my old life. I mean, my friends and home, not my old lifestyle.

What was your motivation in the past three weeks?" I guess it was a few people I really missed and needed to see since I messed up a few things the last time we saw each other.

What was the hardest part of this program? Well, I guess it was accepting you have a problem. And believe me, it's not easy. At all.

Is today someone here with you? Except all these wonderful friends I met here, today two of my best friends joined me. They don't even know how happy I am because, to be honest, I thought they would forget me." And I sat down while everybody clapped.

"Thanks, Hannah. Dennis, you're next..." the psychologist proceeded.

-

"You can show your guests your room and the place until lunch." The nurse told me as I walked out.

"Oh I can't make it, sorry. But I'll visit the whole week so maybe another day." Amber nodded.

"I can stay a bit, if you want." Calum said.

And Calum followed me while Amber left.

-

"Listen, Calum." We both sat on the edge of my bed.

"I've been very rude, specially to you, the last time we saw each other. Please, forgive me." I said.

"Please, Hannah. I could never get mad on you. But just tell me, why? Why did we suddenly become enemies?" He said.

"It... it all started during that concert. With the wink."

"That wink? When I winked to you?"

"You winked to me?"

"Yes."

"But it makes no sense. After that I heard you all talking about how you talked to me the previous day and I was so boring, while my friend, Amber, was cute."

"You heard that? Gosh, it was about you! You were the cute one and Amber was the boring one. I talked to her just before I found you."

"Oh... it all kinda makes sense now."

"I had a crush on you, Hannah."

"Had? Oh I see, because of all that stuff that happened after that. I ruined it all."

"Ruined?"

"I liked you too, Cal."

"Nice way of showing it!"

"Don't yell at me!"

"Okay, okay. Let's not fight.

"Listen, Calum. I messed it up. Okay? Can we just start all again? Give me a chance. Let me be your friend."

"Fine. But... you need to know something."

"Yes?"

"Amber and I are dating."

"B-but... how?"

"As you said. Everything messed up. Everything changed. I changed, Amber changed and you did too."

"Do you love her?"

"Do I love her?! How can you ask that? She was here for me when almost no one was."

"Still sounds like a friend to me."

"I'm confused now, Hannah. Don't ask me anything. I'll give you a chance. But Amber's my girlfriend now."

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Mixed feelings.

I'm planning to finish this book in 5-10 chapters max. idk yet :)