I'm still into you. (Book 2)

Changing

Domingo’s POV.

I keep going over and over it in my head, Charlie has cancer, my husband has cancer. What did we do to deserve this, I pray every day I didn’t leave my faith behind in America, I am a good person, I teach and Charlie saves children’s lives every day. Is it because of our chosen lifestyle or is it because we have everything we ever could have wanted so we have tipped the balance and now it needs to be restored?

That’s bullshit all of it!

Charlie can’t leave me, Christ he can’t leave Emily she’s only a few months old. She can’t spend the rest of her life not knowing how perfect he is. And he is perfect, every tiny little bit of him. I could spend a life time loving him and I still wouldn’t get close to telling him just how much I love him….he can’t leave me.

I don’t know what I would do without him…god I am such a mess right now. I should be strong for him but I am hiding away crying my eyes out instead of comforting him. He is being so brave and he is doing that without me and it isn’t right, I need to pull myself together for him.

I am aware that he knows I am upset and I feel ashamed of myself, I am also aware that since he told me he has also told some of our friends. It hasn’t even been a week since he told me, and these people have already filtered away, I realise illness and death can be uncomfortable but Christ he needs everyone right now.

I walked into the flat having spent the majority of the day walking around London trying my best to get over myself and support Charlie the way he deserves. When I entered the living room he was sitting watching Emily in her door frame swing, she was bouncing up and down and giggling at the movements.

Emily was attached to the door leading from the living room to the kitchen which was opposite the door I was leaning on. It afforded me a perfect view of my family as Charlie held her hands and helped her to bounce slightly higher increasing her giggles tenfold.

“Cute aren’t they.” Lena whispered behind me.

I turned to face her and the smile that was on her face melted and changed into one that was slightly angry and filled with disapproval. I winced because I knew exactly why she was looking at me like that so I quietly stepped out of the room before Charlie and Emily could spot me.

“They are, I love them very much.” I tried to defuse the situation.

“Coulda fooled me!” She whisper shouted. “Domingo Mendez what in the hell do you think you are doing?”

“I’m sorry.” I whispered

“Don’t say sorry to me, you go right in there and apologise to your husband who loves very much. I am not sure why anymore after you practically abandoned him this week, you should be ashamed of yourself.” She continued.

“I am ashamed.” I said eyes filling.

“Oh sweetheart I am sorry I just can’t understand you right now, I see how much you love him why would you pull away when he needs you the most?” She asked.