Heavens Above (Ashton Irwin // 5sos)

Nightmare

I woke up to the sound of my mother yelling my name "ASHTON GET YOUR BUTT UP YOU HAVE SCHOOL" I sighed and got up. I wish I would never have to get up, I wish I could stay asleep forever,you know? Never face reality, because reality is my nightmare and sleep is my dream that I wish I was in forever, just snoozing my worries away.

I made my bed and grabbed my black hoodie and the pair of pants that were on the entertainment center, I guess my Mum laid them out for me. I stripped out of my sleep clothes and got dressed in the clothes that were laid out for me.I put the hood over my head and put on my black vans,grabbing my black Aviators and walking out of my room.  I never liked when people would look at me, I always felt judged

I walked down the stairs to the kitchen, to see my beautiful mum before leaving. We exchanged some words and I said goodbye to my Mum before walking out the door. I didn't want to eat, I probably couldn't of kept it down, I get like that when I'm upset.I saw the ugly orangeish yellow bus pull up and walked to it, getting ready for survival of the fittest, school bus version; finding a seat. I looked around, partially panicking because all I saw were tken seats. I saw an empty seat and silently rejoicing, sat down. I was still rejoicing when a guy sat next to me; "here comes the night mare" I said quietly to my self.

I shifted uncomfortably and looked out the window."Hi I'm Michael" the voice next to me said, wait, did someone just talk to me? I turned around "why did you talk to me?". He looked at me weird; "what are you talking about? I'm new and just wanted to say hi...." I turned back to the window understanding now that he was new and didn't hate me for no reason like everyone else, I looked up at the sky. I've always wondered why I haven't died yet, I should be in heaven, I want to stop suffering this depression.

I want to know what it's like to be happy, and heaven is the only place for me to be happy right? I don't even know...I felt the guy next to me tap me on shoulder." umm hey you should pull down you sleeve" Fuck, he knows. I pulled down my sleeve and looked at the guy, I mean really looked,long and blonde sideswept hair, an eyebrow piercing, thin eyebrows,oval face. Could I trust this guy not to tell? "please don't tell anyone. This only between you and I " I quietly pleaded.He gave me a nod and looked at me and quietly promised, "Don't worry, I used to do it, I stopped because the realization that it wasn't helping anything dawned on me. It only gets worse, and I think you should stopped, but I promise I won't tell".
What the fuck has happened?

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Hey guys sorry for the short chapter but I will update soon Bye!!!!