Heavens Above (Ashton Irwin // 5sos)

First day

A few days later I felt a lot better.I saw someone has put aside some oatmeal for me.I wasn't really hungry but I made myself eat a bit of it.I got up and went to the restroom and saw a bag of my stuff my mum got for me.

I found a brush and brushed my hair down.I found a tank top and a pair of pants and put them on.I then saw my vans and hoodie and put them on as well.I grabed all my things and put them away.

Before I left the room to go to my first therapy appointment I brushed my teeth and found a couple of rubber bracelets to go on my wrist.When I looked in the mirror I was surprised you would have never thought I had depression I looked good for once.

I walked out of the hospital room and signed out.When I walk out of the Hospital my mum was waiting for me.

"Hey son I'm sorry." I cut her off "Mum it's fine I'm done fighting." "I know but" I cut her of again "Mum"

She hugged me and then we started to walk to the car.I sat down in the passenger seat and started to tap to a beat of a song that I liked witch was Miss You by Blink 182 when it came to the course I sung

Don't waist your time on me your all ready the voice inside my head

I miss you I miss you don't waist your time on me your already the voice inside my head I miss you I miss youuuuuuuu ohhhhhhh

I kept singing and beating to the beat.I turned over to my mum when the song was over and she was grinning."what?"I ask "Ashton you have so much talent" she teared up

"What are you talking about?"

"Ashton you should find a band to be in"was all she said.

"Am I really that good" I asked

"Yes Ashton you have great talent" my mum said.Before I got to answer my mum pulled in.I got out of the car and got out I was so nervous.

I walked in the building and followed my mum.Once she saw a door that said 2094 my mum stoped this is it she told me.She opened the door and a guy walk up to me "Hi Ashton I'm Mr. Clifford and I'm you therapist." he smiled

I just nodded and gave him a weak smile.

My mum said she had to go and left I followed Mr. Clifford to a room and he told me to sit."Okay today I just wanna get to know you a little and we can talk about your hobbies and stuff nothing to serious today" he said.I sighed in relief

"Okay Ashton what do you like to do when you have alone time?" he ask

"Well I like to make beats and sing to some songs." I answered

"Oh that's cool mabie you can show me some time?" he smiled.I started to think mabie this guy isn't to bad.

"Ummm I guess I can show you now." I said.Mr.Clifford smiled "sure what song would you like to do?" he asked. "ummmm teenage dirtbag." I said very quietly I was so nervous but if I want to get any were I'm doing it. "okay go a head"he said.I took a deep breath and did the beat and sung like I did in the car.

I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby like you ohhhh oh yeah dirtbag

When I was done he claped "impressive you know my son Michael sings and play guitar with his friends mabie you should join them?" "ummm I don't know mabie I'm not really good with making friends." I said He looked at me with a smile "well the next time you come back were gonna change that!" he smiled.I looked down I had a bad feeling about this.

When therapy was over I was relieved.I said bye and walked out to find my mum.When I found her she smiled "how did it go?" "not to bad but I have a feeling next time it won't be good." I tell her.She sighed and we walked to the car. I sat down in the seat and silently prayed will I Actually get friends? I smiled at the thought but the sighed doubting it would happen.