Moving on - g.d

T w e n t y - f o u r

I awoke by myself in an overly lit room and I couldn't help but groan as I realised that I was in the hospital. To say I was heartbroken was a complete understatement since I was so much more than that.

I was broken, I was drained, I was upset, I was angry. No emotion stood out the most, they all fought to be superior but all raged on at the same significance. It was awful. Nothing was making me feel better, the only two people who probably could help, currently hated me, therefore making my emotions bite even harder.

They hadn't come.

I didn't call for anyone, I wasn't in the mood to talk, so instead, I slowly sat myself up and grabbed my phone, opening my twitter which I had seen was currently blowing up with notifications.

It seemed that an 'anonymous' account had leaked a story of me, claiming about how i cheated on Grayson. I couldn't stop the tears from streaming down my cheeks, it was as though everyone was out to get me. It was my second Twitter scandal in only a short amount of time.

With a disheartened sigh, I continued to scroll, freezing when I saw Grayson's tweet about it.
"Guys, stop with the hate on Cassidy. Yes it was wrong but it happened, we are no longer a couple and we should just leave it at that."
My heart dropped as I read it. I knew that we'd end up breaking up over it but he'd publicly broken up with me on twitter and no one knew.

Stopping the tears was useless now, they were continuing to fall with each sob that shook my body. Each one more violent than the last. It I had felt broken before, it was nothing compared to now, this pain suffocated me, wanting me to do nothing more than to burrow away in my bed and hide from society forever.

"You're not going to do that though because it's what they want and you're stronger than that." Jack's voice said clearly and I sighed in relief at the fact I had company, and he didn't sound as though he hated me.
"I don't believe this story one bit, it was clear to see that you absolutely fucking adored that boy so why would you even consider cheating?!" He ranted as I reached for his hand.
"I was unconscious.. he made me when I was unconscious." I said quietly, my pitch increasing towards the end as more tears threatened.

Instantly, I saw his expression soften as he pulled me into a tight hug, stroking my back comfortingly.
"Who was it Cass? You need to report this." He urges as I shrugged, looking at the plain, white bed sheets settled across my legs.
"What's the point? I give up." I muttered as jack grabbed my face, making me look up at him.

"Don't even think about it. I need you. The world needs you. Ignore the ignorance that comes with social media and lift your chin. It's hard but you can't let it get to you. You need to tell Grayson what happened too." He exclaimed staring at me with pure confusion as I shook my head.
"If he can't trust me when why should I bother? If I told him, he either wouldn't believe me or would only take me back due to pity and I don't want that." I told Jack, happy to see that he was nodding in agreement.

"I know you love him but I honestly think that it's one of the best things you could've said, if you stayed, it would've only caused a toxic relationship and that's exactly what you don't need, not at all." Jack said.
"Honestly, if I wasn't gay, this would be the time where I kiss you but the thought of kissing a girl repulses me, no offence to you though, if it helps, you'd repulse me least of all!" He assured as I laughed, shaking my head at my crazy agent.
"Calm Jack, it's totally fine, I understand." I laughed as he seemed to sigh in relief.

"So since I'm your only company, I feel obliged to ensure that you aren't bored." Jack informed me as I nodded slowly.
"Okay what's that supposed to mean?"
"Well we could watch a film? Or we could do some big stalking? Or I could get you McDonald's while we tell each other everything on our minds."
I contemplated the options, before coming to the conclusion that I wasn't ready to spill my heart out and leave everything in the open and I definitely wasn't ready to find a guy to replace Grayson so I settled on the safe option.
"A film, but I would quite like a McDonald's." I hinted as Jack sighed dramatically, grabbing his car keys.
"I'll be back soon." He announced, leaving me in the bed with a smile on my face, a genuine, happy smile.

I was surprised that I could even smile after what happened but I was glad that I could. It showed me that the pain was temporary no matter how much I thought otherwise.

My happy thoughts took me away, letting me daydream of a better place than I was right now, where I wasn't in pain or heartbroken.

It wasn't long before I was rudely interrupted and pulled from my visions.
"Wow you was-" I was cut off short and was staring at Grayson.
"What are you doing here?" I asked quietly, my voice thick and my eyes stinging from unfallen tears.

"I'm sorry. I feel like I jumped to conclusions without giving you a chance and I want to make it right again." He explained as I shook my head angrily.
"No! Do you know how humiliating it is to find out that you're single from a tweet? You didn't give me a chance when it first happened, you're only here because I'm in hospital! The guy I supposedly 'cheated' with gave me this black eye and bruised face. I didn't like him at all, but I guess you thought I did. I've put up with so much crap and I don't want it anymore Grayson. We're done." I ranted, my voice coming down to a whisper as I uttered the final two words.

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