Tainted

CHAPTER 9: CONFESSIONS AND LIMITS

Hayden's P.O.V.

Soft warm lips, rosy skin, dark hair. I felt something run through my hair. "Mhhmmm." It was like I was in heaven. Then a hand yanked at my hair pulling me out of my dream of her. I snapped my eyes open and saw Noah sitting on my chest. "Fuck."

"No cussing in front of the children." Asher stood with his shoulder leaning on the door way of my room. His arms crossed over his chest which he loved doing since it allowed him to flex the muscles in his arms. I felt insecure about my muscles, girls always told me that I was cute and hot. I was slightly skinnier than Asher, on the other hand he was more ripped and was called sexy not cute.

Pushing the thoughts out of my head I looked down at Noah. He was amazingly adorable. I could already see girls were going to fall for his cute dimples. Genes in the Vanderbilt family ran good. He took his hand out of my hair and smacked me. I looked at him in horror, even though it didn't hurt.

"Ash said you have to wake up. It the middle day. Play with me." He said struggling to find the right words but giggled.

I sighed and lifted him up he practically weighed nothing. Then set him back on the bed. "Asher can you bring him to the park or something, or the back yard I think we have fish in the pond or something."

"Fish!" Noah's eyes lit wide and he ran out, probably to the backyard.

"I made breakfast and watched him all morning, you're on babysitting duty tonight."

"Why? Do you have plans?" I asked, not actually caring if he did. We lived our lives separately. Occasionally we would talk about girls that were hot that we would see at dinner parties and events, but I didn't meddle in his love life if he didn't meddle in mine.

"Yeh. I'll see you tomorrow. Have fun with Noah." He said smirking then left.

I let out a breath, Noah was a big enough boy to stay put in the backyard for a little while longer. I went to the bathroom and turned on the shower, stripping. I locked the door in case Noah decided to invade my space. I closed my eyes and rested my forearm against the tiles. I had a waterfall shower that was big enough to fit more than ten people. Resting my forehead on my forearm I let my thoughts drift.

What was she doing? I thought back to her smile when I talked to her yesterday, I wanted to see it again. Fuck. No, I told her that we would be friends. Fuck being friends. I wanted to take her lips this time. I imagined her biting her lip, which she had done countless times during class. I imagined biting into her bottom lip. Tasting the soft skin on her shoulder. Shit I was getting so hard. I turned the water handle so it was on ice cold. "Fuck." Not right now Hayden, I told myself. I reached down and clutched my length. I wanted her to be the one wrapped around it right now. I couldn't take it as the pain caused my body to pulse. I relieved myself, never had I gotten hard just from thinking about a girl. Most girls usually threw themselves on me and I took them to bed because I felt bored.

I got out of the shower after cleaning everything up and pulled on grey trousers and looked for a t-shirt. I found the one that Fae had given back to me picked it up. I held it to my face, it smelt like her rosy scent. I threw it on contempt with the fact that she had worn it that night. I looked in the mirror. I usually didn't shave since I had light hair and not much growing in. I ran my hands threw my blonde hair it was longer and started to curl at the ends. I pushed it back so it as in the shape of a quiff, but I knew that's not how it would look by the end of the day. Not caring anymore, walking downstairs I saw Asher had cooked eggs and toast, leaving me a plate. The kitchen was a mess, something I would have to do later. Dad's maids were not going to be here until next weekend since he decided to let me fend for myself as a punishment.